today was a super long and eventful day. hmm.

first up was council presidential elections. well i should say, that it is rather gay. haha. cuz i guess the candidates running for council pres din seem really well.. charismatic enough? i dunno. i shldnt comment. oh welll.

the maths test results. WAHAHA. i got double digit: 10! i think its ok already since i thought i would get like 5? haha. but im happy (: must try to practice more then i'll do better for bloc tests.
jin bao! haha.

chorale practice was interesting. seriously lah. the bimbotic actions are rather easy and haha, crazy. actually, i really enjoyed playing and fooling around..i just cant stop laughing and giggling..haha..i think im a typical bimbo..as in i acted well as a bimbo. suit the role. HAHAHA. u noe, its like being able to throw away everything and just do something super crazy..plus, the gurls doing the cheerleading part are really nice: junhua, yun pei, kaixuan and olivia..funny and yes, siao ppl..so yeah, its really enjoyable..wow. i think the johnny-whoops part is rather eerie and scary. really it achieve its aim of creating the atmosphere..so, well done guys!! hehe.. i really hope the play would be a GOLD- one. (:

syf choir prac was ok i guess..at least we finished two songs.bare minimum lah. im really sorry cuz i think i din conducted u guys well..yep, i wasnt too sure with the rhythm myself, so thanks for all the help and advice given yea? appreciated it. i know i didnt do it well today..i am so afraid that i'll disgrace the rvchorale name lah..but then again, i tried my best..hmm, must really go familarise all the parts again..i couldnt spot the altos cuz i wasnt paying enough attention while practicing..i really hope we can make it on next wed..or else, we are screwed..labour day is our second and final prac--combined. really hope everyone will (try to) come..be responsible not only for the self, but also for the whole batch..

i really like my caregroup (: nice and friendly ppl. hehe..tracee used innovative and fun ways share about the sermon last sat..i enjoyed myself..and the caregroup ppl are basically LAME. hahahahaha. no wonder i enjoyed myself. cuz i just kept laughing. haha (: must really thank GOD. cuz if not for his plan for me to come to hwachong..to be in the same class as fungmin (again) and tracee..i will not have known this fun-loving ppl..really hope that, in time, i'll get to know them better and we can continue to support each other in our lives.. thank God for bringing me into the Hope Church family! (:

thank God for my life now. although im still a little sick. and im having some stupid bruises..its ok. and i love the ppl around me.. (:



haha.

public speaking was a very boring yet funny course..haha, at first i thougyht i would totally hate it..but in the end, i found that i actually enjoyed it alot...hahaha..partly i guess its cuz i was with 06A13..and that made the difference..i was rolling on the floor laughing the whole of the lesson lah!! WAHAHA.

we all switched names. tracy was fungmin. fungmin was yingtse. yingtse was peiyu. peiyu was olivia. olivia was me. and i was tracee.
at first when the instructor called, "tracee!?" den i was blank and toook awhile b4 i answered. and i was giggling. then after that, thaat instructor kept calling "tracee" which was me. and poor ME had to answer weird questions and embarrass myself with that tongue-twister. bleahx.
but it was funny cuz he believed i was really tracee. i think he still didnt know it when we left at 3pm for service. WAHAHA. funny.

thats why i say, its more fun to go to such courses with classmates. esp 06A13.




for those who wonder why im blogging at this time when i should be at school..

im sick today. bleahx. i woke up with an awful headache, a slight fever and a real bad running nose..oh no..i havent been THIS sick for a long time..usually it will be just a random nose thing or a headache or maybe ok, a cough..but no, i dunno what happened to me..mayb ive been so caught up with my life tht i forgot to take care of myself..

i must really take care of myself..tmr is napfa running..and the week ahead is gonna be an even busier one..hmm. yes, must drink more water and take vitamins..




maybe i was mistaken. hhmm.. im like not veh sure now.. i really hope they were just commenting but not gossiping.. that will be DARN good. (:

by the way, i change the song. its From this moment by shania twain. nice. (:


RAHh. just finish the crap of a PI. again. this is like my 3rd one. i seriously hope this one can make it. to say the truth, i dunno why PI is SO important. and why on earth we must do PI, no use wan lah! i mean, seriously, when we get into our different groups den we'll have to choose a topic TGT right? ahyo. but anyway, yes, it may help us focus abit..oh welll.

the week ahead is gonna be a tough one for me. im like busy everyday frm now on..im actually quite worried that i wont be able to catch up with my school work..its just fortunate that we dont have any tests this week..mon, wed, fri--choir. tue and thurs- syf drama. dead la.

ooh, i have a new Bible!! its my first personal english Bible..haha, actually its quite weird cuz there are like 5 or 6 Bibles at home..but im so happy (: thanks to tracee, fung and samuel!

ok, phrase of the day:

hehe, ok im very lame.


Math sux. i cant do math for nuts! omg. today's test is a real killer..haha.if i get 5, i'll be happy enough.. ew.

today, i was talking to one of my frens, n i realised tht i wasnt really likeable in rv..actually, to say the truth i already knew it long ago..i guess its my personality tht puts ppl off at times..i thought ive grown out of the stage where others' opinions will no longer hurt..what matter will be my own opinion and value of myself..but no, i realise i can still be hurt about it..

its esp upsetting when i heard tht the ones who spoke back abt me to others are my better friends..i thought they accepted me..and will take me as ME..i thought whatever it is, they've gotten used to me being me and not criticise me anymore..i thought at least we have been good frens from last yr till now? why issit tht u guys still talk bad behind me? this year? i guess its really really hurting to hear tht..since we are good frens (at I thought so), u guys can just tell me whats wrong with me, what u all dun like..so that i can be better right? its demoralizing when its my own frens who dont believe in me..i thought at least the both of u are the constants in my life and tht we are good frens for really long..but obviously u guys dun treat me as ur good fren..

im not blaming u all. im blaming myself for being this way. for these unknown reasons..these wrong or bad things and traits abt me, which i myself dont known, but still circulates around..

i really really hope that my frens, my really best and true frens, who matter alot more to me, wont do this to me..i dont think i will be able to take it then..
if u all have anything against me, please tell me straight..
and im gonna do the same thing too..tell my frens what i really feel..

Tuesday, April 18 Y 11:11 PM

i just finish studying for econs test tmr..so i decided to blog a little..

hmm..its really great to have supportive classmates..i couldnt make it for my SBJ (AGAIN.=X) and i was feeling so bad and upset cuz its like i did well for the rest..but i must really thank my cls mates for being there for me..they just kept encouraging me and pushing me on..in the end, though i still need more training..but i know i tried my best..and i felt okay..
its perhaps a blessing in disguise. i really need to train more for other items as well..perhaps i'll be able to do much better at the re-test than today..

there's choir tmr. im not really excited about it. i still have to go. but im sure i'll enjoy it.

im so sorry i wasnt putting a very good side of myself on monday..i was REALLY pissed. not at the ppl infront but at this particular person. i shant talk much abt her..i just hope i wont show my displeasure..cuz it'll be really mean. so i must really. really tone down and calm down. BREATHE.

ive been wondering. should i run for choir comm? but yes, in the first place i must get nominated..haha..ok, and i have doubts abt myself being voted in..cuz yea, im like still rather new..and compared to the more prominant others, im just a little, eh, bean. haha. yes, and everyone already have their own favourites..and ppl who they want as their comm ppl..yea. its rather late to 'chap' in rite? i tink i wanto run. but yes. up to God.

im starting to enjoy myself more and more in choir..really. cuz i realise everyone is just as mad and crazy as me. well, most. and im happy. (: cuz i feel myself fiiting in more and more each practice..yeah! haha..the ppl r really super nice. esp the gurls (:

oh yes! my eye-candy was on the same bus with me today! hee (:

haha. i kept tinking abt suet's running sakura. HAHAHAHAHAHA. its really funny.

lalalala lalalala almo's song!

hehe (:

Monday, April 17 Y 12:10 AM

hmm. its rather late, but i felt like blogging so came online for just a little while..

well. today i was walking to the bus stop from my ah ma's hse, and i was thinking as i walked..it just struck me something :

an eye-candy shall remain an eye-candy. and not evolved into anything more than that.

haha. ok i know this is rather random. but yea just a thought. cuz i was thinking back to last year..when an eye-candy became an infactuation and finally into a crush which was SO EMBARRASSING. haha. for those who know, you would agree that it was a BIG thing. ahh. omg. feeling kinda flushed now to think abt it. omg. haha..

but yes. im determined this time to keep this current eye-candy as it is. and not let it evolved into smt more. NO WAY. haha.

ok, i just realised i sound like a total bimbo.

Sunday, April 16 Y 8:21 PM

haha. i dunno what happened to me! but im having fun doing those weird quizzes..most of them are rather true for me!!haha (:


number 1:

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

number 2: haha this is funny but nice (:

Your French Name is:

Adora Clerc

What's Your French Name?

number 3:

Your Birthdate: February 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done. Your strength: Your inner peace Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds Your power color: Emerald Your power symbol: Leaf Your power month: November

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

number 4: haha. this is a jessica simpson song. (:

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Sweetest Sin

What's Your Porn Star Name?

number 5:

What Your Underwear Says About You

You tend to buy new underwear instead of doing laundry. You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

number 6: nice cookie! yum! (:

You Are a Jam Cookie

On the outside, you project a straight-laced, innocent vibe. But on the inside, you're complex, exotic, and full of flavor.

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

number 7: nice! (:

Your Toes Should Be Pink

You love to dress girly and work your feminine charms, with a bit of an edge. Your ideal guy: Is confident enough to get any girl he wants Stay away from: Jerks who only see you as eye candy

What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

number 8:

Your Nail Polish Color is Magenta

How you're unique: You're confident - and you show everyone the true you Why your style rocks: You have the attitude to carry the most outrageous outfits off What this color says about you: "Look at me. I know you want to!"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

number 9:

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl. You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion. And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun. Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

number 10:

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

number 11:

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

How Do Men See You?

number 12: hehe (:

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

number 13:

You Attract A Good Amount of Guys

While you may not get the most offers in the room, You've got a good thing going - dating wise You could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guys But in general, you are doing just fine!

Are You Attractive?

haha i dunnoe why im so weird..its just tht its fun to do this stupid stuff sometimes.. (: hahah entertaining too to see how it turns out..hahaha (:

Saturday, April 15 Y 11:28 PM

hmm. ok. today's a pretty hectic day..1st went to paint choir banner..hey i tink its NICE. just hope we get to paint those birds..so cool..thanks Shaoning! ur design huh?! pro!
after dat(and also during painting) i had a major gd time with the choir ppl..haha..we just start singing all the school songs half way through painting and its really funny..they seniors were like NO!!! hahahahahaha..they are really nice and fun ppl..im so glad they accepted the lame and blur me..so i had alot of fun..

then me and suet Yi went to pia for the bus 174 to take us to cuppage plaza for youth service and church of hope..suet is a real funny girl hahahahaha..she's so crazy and she makes me laugh..it was really fun suan-ing her.. (:

at first i was quite intimidated by the worship and all..then i put my self in a mode to accept with an open heart..i just listened..and prayed that God would lead the way..the sermon was interesting and i realise how God love us.

For God so love the world, that He gave His one and only son...

and the Pastor was emphasizing:

God Loves You.

n i rediscover again that He has never left me..it was me who had shut him away..all i have to do is to reopen my heart for Him and call for Him..and He will be back..i broke down when i realise it was me who drifted away..it was then where i recommited my life to Him..

so, i decided to settle here. once again i made a change. i hope that this time it would be a longlasting change. and not a 3 seconds thing.

i told Yirene about it though i was hesitant about it (cuz i was afraid she would be upset or disappointed in me)..but instead she was in fact worried for me cuz yea both of us are not used to charismatic churches..and we didnt noe if the sermons go according to the Bible. but i thought it was. anyway, i explained to her how i felt more loved, and familar around familar faces..im glad she understood..she would come and check it out some day and i hope she would agree with me that it is truly refreshing and enriching here..and different.

i hope my decision is correct. Lord, lead on. (:

Friday, April 14 Y 11:34 PM

maybe im fickle or something. i know i just made a switch less than a year ago. but somehow, i feel like its time to change again.

its not tht i dont wanto go u know. its like i wanto have a close relationship with God and i want to have close friendships with my friends..its like somehow no matter how i try..i just kept beating around n around..and soon i find myself back at square one..i must admit im not used to not having good frens no matter where i go..sounding abit proud or eh zi lian? no. i dont mean it. what i mean is i dun have really good frens here..and it feels kinda weird u noe..its like i try i really did..to make frens and so on..yes, it takes time..but after a few times, i just suddenly feel so reluctant to try to make it better..

i know its not all about friends..i understand..but its like friends are important right?

i really wanto experience the love of Him again..at first, after i switched to sword, i started reading the Bible and enjoying myself at worships and service..i understood and learnt from the sermons and all dat..but now..its starting to get away again..sometimes i find myself drifting away during sermon..i find myself shunning the Bible..not as in shunning but just lazy like i dun wanto read already..as in i dunt see the point..

in the beginning of the year, i promised myself and God that i will try to go to fellowship and read the Bible often at a more regular basis..in the 1st three months, i was involved in ac choir so my saturdays were taken away..when i was posted to hwachong, i though yes finally i will be able to go to church more often..then as weeks drag by, i find myself busy and yes i couldnt go for a few weeks..
after that i tried..i really did..to go and try to have fun..then i find myself wondering why am i there? i dun learn anything, neither am i enjoying as much as i did last time..
then i started making excuses for myself..i cant go..i got too much homework..i got something on with my frens..stuff like dat..all because i didnt feel like going to fellowship..

like the gd friday service? i was tired. really. but i know if i really wanted to, i could pull myself to go..but i didnt cuz i just couldnt bring myself too..

im going to the church of hope tmr..i dunno what it will be like..i wanto see what is it in that church that even pulled fung back to God..and i want to see whether it can do the same thing for me too..

i believe in Him. Lord, please lead the way. i need you in my life. i need Jesus to take the wheel from me..

jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
cuz i cant do this on my own
im let it go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road im on
jesus take the wheel

Y 11:09 AM

if you guys wanto see my VERY old posts,
pls go to:
http://vonne0889.blogs.friendster.com/vonne/
eh i tink. haha (:

Y 10:38 AM

hello! haha..i finally completed my own blog..am So proud of myself!
hehe..i got help from fungmin's and 06a13's blog..yeppie..so happy. (:

hmm..ok i shall start.
i wanted to blog this for long already..

i guess life now is okay. i really like my class..nice bunch of crazy ppl who accepted us 2nd intakers and made us feel as if we've been tgt since the start of the year..i must admit..sometimes i still feel weird coming to school..and sometimes i find myself with the 2nd intakers only.. but i guess its getting loads better..haha..i find myself enjoying myself more and more each day..

i guess i still cant really fit in yet in choir..i hope i will be better soon..hmm..i dunnoe why maybe i expected too much..i expected to be able to mingle straight in..maybe it takes more than myself..more time perhaps? i hope so..i dunt wanto be left like an outsider at the end of the year..

i still miss my ac frens..esp ad2 ppl..and sometimes i do think wat if i were in ac instead of hwachong now? then i realised that yes i will enjoy myself but maybe i wont be myself..cuz i really am rather china so i guess im more myslef here in hc and thts wat is impt right?
i know everyone says that its impossible that you can still be good frens wif your 1st 3 mths frens..i wanto prove this misconception wrong!! i hope at the end of the year or even more than tht, i will still keep in good contact with my ac frens.. (:

thank you everybody for tolerating with my blur-ness and lame-ness.. hehe..but thts me (:

i still wanna be a strawberry. (: