i feel very blessed cuz of many things.

firstly, i'm glad i went to send alex off yesterday. i think the look on his face which expressed appreciation was worth the changing-buses-then-cab-trip home. i mean i must admit that at first,i was hesistant to go in the morning, but well. i went in the end and yup, i felt happy i went.

second, my mom didnt know i reached home at 1 plus in the morning. i was half expecting her to be waiting up for me or tolike scream at me in the morning- but she didnt, so yeahh.
third, i got the mica scholarship! i think its a blessing/ a miracle. i rmb thinking that its quite divine cuz i went for it on the day of my first day on the thai trip. managed to go first on the interview and rush to the airport in time. yupps.

fourth, when i was praying today for the fasting i was doing, i like made up this song, inspired by how i was feeling at the moment. its not very good, but yup, i like it that i manage to record it down in my phone and even try out the arrangement on the piano.haha.

yups. loads of blessings in one day. and im very very grateful so yupp. thank God. (:


how do i explain? i dont know how to express this but well that response really got me -.-. im quite annoyed now and its giving me a headache. how do i explain why it is actually not a small thing but quite a impt thing for me?


and it has to be this last lesson. why do you have to piss me off.
im disappointed, insulted and very angry. not just because of the act itself, but its the fact that i thought you respected me enough to be more sensible, and to know that i hated this kind of things. i cant and wont take this kind of rubbish.


i guess i forgot about what Pastor Peter said about what i need to pray.
the wall msg actually reminded me of it.
PEACE.


you know im SO annoyed now. and confused too.
is this a sign of a closed door?


im dying.
at first i enjoyed,even relished putting the red pools of ink onthe scripts. now! im so tired and siann. worse, there are more! ahhh. kill me.