havent blog in awhile.
wanted to find a picture to describe what God showed me last friday. but couldnt find an apt one.

a boat in a storm. a raging storm. the boat straddling helplessly in the midst of the storm. lost hopeless desperate scared. then a hand steering the little boat to shore.
i was the boat and God's hand will steer me out of this.
this msg came at the exact right time. i was feeling so desperate, so heartbroken and God really reassure me and gave me a renewed heart. hope.
just yesterday, i was disappointed once again by the reactions. felt really dejected and helpless. i thought, perhaps im not good enough, not nice enough, not caring enough. i found myself lacking. but wow, the QT passage the CLs chose was Psalm 139. how apt.

Psalm 139: 9-10
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

i was immensely comforted. and i felt myself at peace again. then God pointed another verse to me.

Psalm 127:1
1 Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.

i havent entrusted the task to God enough. ultimately im not the overall incharge. so i shld just depend on God more, and let Him do His thing. (:
yeah, thank God cuz i really needed this assurance and comfort. and where else can i get this kind of peace but from my Jesus?

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a blooming rose. falling outer petals.
i was really disturbed, very freaked by this picture that God showed me this morning. kept thinking abt it. even during QT just now, i was wondering if anything could be done? am i supposed to do smt? of course it's not only my problem, which makes the matter worse isnt it.
i know it's common for such a thing to happen. i mean, yeah, its normal. even inevitable. but how can God's kingdom, God's work be common, be normal?
God's work, His kingdom is uncommon, supernatural, supernormal. so it will not be what the world may be.
if we are to be the example of a big group that is able to sustain, if we have been so so so blessed so far, how can we fall short? no way. i believe, commonality will not happen to us if we do something about it. if we seek God about it. no use waiting for something to happen, waiting for help to come from above when we dont ask, dont fight, dont try. sounds rather radical but well, i really think its a warning. a sign of caution.

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back to choir tmr. my throat's feeling weird, which is BADDDD.
but well, i'll just have to spam water and pi pa gao.
yeah service tmr! =D


from this it is very obvious that the person who cries wins the game.
and who gets the blame? the other.
more often than not, this other is me.


ARES owned Dramafest! (:

we won 3 out of 7 awards.
Best Actor-Rui-An!
oh my i was so proud of him. when he said his lines accurately on friday, junhua and i were like grabbing each others' hands with immense joy cuz we knew that he had already nipped the prize. my goodness. (: (: (:
Best Supporting Actors-ARES.
esp MOGs! oh my. another award for our actors. esp the MOGs who had to endure the thick ugly disgusting scary makeup. jinyan, qinsheng and bryan. very very proud of them. not to forget the other guys from the cast- yuxuan, ezra and simchun. =D
Best Ensemble-backstage, lighting, sound and MAKEUP-US!!
you know i didnt realised that the prize was for us as well till today. i thought it was meant for backstage. no wonder olivia got us to take a picture with the trophy! haha. but well well. after the first night everyone was commenting that Ares' makeup too thick. sorry, this is called professionalism. if you want to perform, you shld look the best. and thats with the full attire, or armour. im glad we followed our instincts with the makeup as it brings out the personalities of the characters! (: (: (: (: (:

i was actually quite confused when apollo got best play. i thought artemis would get it. but well, the judges were kinda weird. anyways, not gonna be the sore loser cuz we are the winners.
although, i still think yiming deserves the Best Actress award. yes, Claire acted well, she could enunciate better, she had better stage presence. but well, yiming was a truer actress. her emotions were better expressed. it was her best yesterday. i felt cheated for her. rahh. but well, we know who deserve to win, dont we. oh well, i sound so angsty here. HAHA.

yep here are the pictures.

J2 makeup artists with our well-deserved trophy! (:

bryan the MOG and me


with MOGs and Ryan

with our Best Actor! michael (:

MOGs. haha their makeup cool right. done by junhua and me! =D

Costumes and Makeup. Ares. Dramafest 2007.

some 06A13 girls with Mr Teh looking rather weird. haha.

the guys were trying to do something to gao bin.....wonder what?!


hahaha. dramafest was really a very interesting and exciting experience. right now, i'll be going back to choir. seriously, im kinda excited to go back.
my throat will be fine soon. cuz Jesus will heal me--that i believe.
i'll blog abt my birthday celebrations tmr. (: yeahs.

i dont believe it's gonna end here. there will be more. more.


both my shepherding sessions today were rescheduled. hmm. its okay, this gives me more time to prepare a better lesson for my sheep. yeah yeah.

starting to drift apart. can feel it, and somehow, i cant help feeling a little sad. hmm and well, i can understand that cuz there's now a lack of smt. closeness i guess. oh maybe cuz of the added.....level. secrets. hmm, im not really used to it, but i am getting used to it. sounds ironic. haha. but yeah, i guess this gives me a chance to explore other areas. with other people. and not be forever stuck on one area. blessing in disguise? yep i guess so.

i really liked the discussion during PE today. haha, yes, we weren't doing pe, but slacking at the classbench. (we're sick!) i was trying to do math, but ended talking abt stuff. talking abt our churches, spiritual lives, sermons (which yingtse called lectures accidentally, haha), etc. and learnt more abt each other. i found it fruitful, and somehow, it gives me a chance to start thinking how to go on sowing. i believe its my turn, this time.
help me step out more, Lord. (:

okay, i know this is like kinda late, but well, im just gonna post a number of photos.

Orientation Campfire 2007

a very spiritual picture. HAHA.
hongwei and me acting cute.

the guys. spasm?!

see the girls so pretty..

yeah, im taller than shijia!

karweng & me. both of us look weird. haha.

oh-li and me!

princess lyly and me!

special class math partner, yingtse & me (:









haha. thats all for now. hmms.
STJ tmr.
Choir tmr.
SERVICE tmr. ooooh yeah. im excited (:
toodles! =D