my blog is totally stale. but i need to post some thoughts.
this week is such a stressful week. i've got so many things to think about, to do, to plan, to buy, to go. and it was driving me crazy.
the nus modules and bidding system is so confusing-i read about it, called ppl up about it, talked to ppl online/in person about it, and to me, there are still certain things which i cant get. whatever it is, im just glad that i got pre-allocated modules. all i need to do is to bid for the rest-which are not easy to choose. and it stresses me out.
ministry wise, i think i've been taken out of my comfort zone so much these few weeks that yeah, im kinda stunned by it. like woooh--this is the extent of heart, effort and mind i need to put in. i've never expected it to be like this. and frankly, i do get tired and disappointed and sian about it. like a rubber band. when it's stretched, it's taut and strained and that's how i feel sometimes. but at the end of the day, i will remind myself about the reason behind it all and i will be fine.
i cant claim that i understand everything. i can say that sometimes i dont feel like understanding everything. understanding will require a response and it can get challenging and tough, somethings i may not wish to do.
did i make the wrong choice? i dont know. certain questions and stuff do make me feel like im making a wrong choice. is it wrong to take a chance? i need to set my mind straight again before starting school. stop thinking and overthinking about things and incidents and comments which increase my self doubt.
i dont know whether im understood or not. maybe not. but whether im understood or not, some reactions certainly pile the stress up on me.
its just the beginning and im already starting to feel the heat. what's going to happen next?
it has been a mad rush these few weeks. maybe i havent taken some time for myself in a long while. maybe i need to take the rest with God again.
i hate wallowing in self-pity.

i must rmb that im God's Little Princess.