went for caregroup today at cheryl's. i really enjoyed myself just chilling out with the hc ppl. watched a miraculous show--Raised from the Dead and the Passion of Christ. wow. i must say, i am super amazed. its really amazing that our Lord will suffer so so so much to save us. i mean, He could have just chose to leave us alone, or even die peacefully. but He chose the suffering way in order to redeem us. i covered my eyes 85% of the time and my ears for 75% of the time during Passion, the gory bloodshed was too much for me.. really tells me how much Jesus loves me. i kept asking myself, and also Him, why did He have to suffer so much? why not just make it simpler for Himself. then samuel ans my doubts during sharing that its all because He really loves us, He had to pay with His life in order to give us a new fresh life. so amazing. really made reflect.

i think i made the right choice yesterday night by withdrawing my application to be in fac comm, so i dint go for the interview today. sorry to disappoint yeekai, but i must think about myself more. its like, i dont even have time for God, for my studies, for choir and for myself now. why am i making my life even worse than before? its not that i'll confirm get in or what, its just that..i dont know. i just know i have to free myself in order to concentrate on God and on my studies as well. for choir too, since its syf next year, and i want to be focused. thank God for helping me make this decision. (:

although there's elections on 12th, ive decided to fulfill my obligations to my family and go for the trip. cuz no matter what, God will take care of everything. He will give me what i need, or do not need; what i can do, or do not do; what He thinks i can do for choir and what i cant do for choir. so i should just trust Jesus and go have some fun. (: yeah, makes me alot happier and more relax after making this choice. i hope its the right one. asked shaoning about it, hope she rmbs to tell me tmr (:

ooh, im really excited for church camp!
ive got this feeling that something special's gonna happen and my life will change. hope God shows me more and really help me grow. (:


went for ac's choir concert yesterday. the songs brought back a wave of nostalgia in me, and i suddenly missed singing with them. i could still remember the magical feeling when mrs wilson conducted us..and it was realy special to me..think this memoey will always waver in my heart, especially in times when i go for their concerts or hear them sing..

i was suddenly very very very proud of RVChorale and what my batch acheived. we sang Kasar Mie La Ga Hie and got a "perfect" from the judges and our GOH. when i heard them sing yesterday, i realised how similar it was to our version of Kasar. i tink ours was better. hahah, anyway, i saw Ms Tham and i realised how much ive missed talking to her too. it has been a while. hope that i'll see her the nxt time im back in RV.

currently, im at home because im totally horribly sick with a very very bad throat. i dont even know if i'll recover in time for recording on saturday. certainly hope so. this friday, will be gg for interview for the nominations of vp, secretary and welfare. im kinda nervous, but i know tht if i just do my best and show my true self, whats mine will be mine. i believe God will lead the way. im actually very touched that although im a 2nd in-taker, there are ppl who believe in my capabilities and abilities to lead them.. i was quite surprised, cuz i thought they would at most nominate me for welfare? haha. but it nice to know that some of my frens believe in me. (:

just talked to zhikang, who is currently in Colorado, that elections are on the 12th. does 12th sound familar? yes it does. im sposed to be in malaysia from 11th to 13th. how wonderful rite, smacked in the middle of my holiday. RAHHs. and i only know abt it today. okay, so i must maake a decision soon. to go or not to go. i really wanto go cuz it has been a long time since i travel with my extended family, but i wanto stay cuz i wanto vote and yeah, of course want others to vote for me. thats so sad. oh no, what should i do? i think i'll consult sera then shaoning about this, and then make a decision. currently, my instinct tells me to go, cuz no matter what, they will rmb me and vote for me if they think i can make it. haha. God, i need your wisdom to make my choice now.




just did this rather interesting personal dna thing. i think its rather true. shld try it. (:


My Personal Dna Report





okay, sposed to do tht journal thing with leeyang..but she not online. haha. nvm, shall do some reflections here..

okay, it wasnt really fun. as in okay la. i tried to enjoy myself. . its just tht i was a little tired then i couldnt really concentrate..i cant stone and i have to keep using my hands..so i cant sleep..rahhs..but it was okay towards the end.

the best thing was i kept spamming photos..its like my computer is so "leeyang"!! rahh. HAHAHA. its filled with her auntie photos. and mine trying to be "sao" pictures. funny. by the way, im the new tamborine ambassador. (:


it was rather fun towards the end. im serious. esp the combining middle eastern and brazillian instruments part. and the complicated rhythms.. haha. nice!

oh, this is to leeyang : stop spreading rumours about me. rahhs! or else, i'll post ALL UR auntie online. WAHAHA. check out 06a13 class blog for more interesting pictures.



Aspirations
the concert is finally over. it wasnt a terrific concert, in fact, we can be much much much better. according to many ppl, it was a really disapponting concert.

heard from my fren today tht one of the seniors say they can expect us to only get silver for next yr's syf. this made me angry. how can they judge us based on what we are now, even when we havent started learning the pieces? its very unfair. some of us are not vocally trained before while the rest of us need more time to blend. is that too much to ask for? please do not look down on us. cuz hwachong choir will chiong all the way to what we really are--a GOH choir. and thats for sure.

really wanto thank everyone who came down to support me..my ad2 friends from ac, really love them alot, thanks so much for coming to support me..and even bought me the cute toy flower (: i was really glad that joel and hengyi came! hengyi even bought me a lily! (: nice! and oh my, a13! u guys arh. heard tht kenneth slept. and some of the others yawned a little, but, really thank you guys for staying till the end of the concert..and for giving me so many flowers..


i felt so loved!!

felt like a star!!

haha. thank you guys (:


ahh! its so nice to see tht at least one of the sec1 guys frm sabbaticals was appreciative. so nice of him to post a comment on my tag! (: really made my day! haha.

am abt to start my gp essay. i seriously hope i can finish by eh today. o9r else im dead meat. plus cuban missile crisis term paper. hope i can get mdm tay to forgive me cuz i dont think i can finsh by monday.. hope so. God, i need strength!!

classmates gg overseas..kinda worried for the russia ppl..will pray for them..

ah. im kinda excited for choir concert tmr..its too bad tht some of the ad2 ppl cant make it..really missed them! and the a13 ppl as well. nvm, ur moral support are appreciated! (:

gg to church later. excited. (:


i realised tht im rather irritable nowadys. as in i get pissed of very easily. smt is seriously wrong with me. rahh. i seriously cant communicate with ppl today..i get all fired up and really upset over SMALL matters. i get totally stressed up for nothing, or rather everything.

my studies sux. can u imagine being really pleased with myself for getting grades like 11 out of 20 for economics!? hello?! its bad. and i was laughing over it. yeah rite, better buck up soon and start passing my other subjects like lit and math.

i foresee many problems ahead in choir. i really hope that we are strong enough, united enough as a batch to tide through..otherwise, we're seriously ruined..what is a choir without unity and love for each other and the music we create? nothing.

i was initially rather disturbed by the fact tht i'll most likely not get the responsibility that i want..i really wanto make a change and have an impact on hwachong choir..thn after some deliberation, i decided tht it doesnt matter if i get it or not. sure, i'll be upset. for a while. but ultimately the most impt thing is to have gd passionate leaders who will lead us to greater heights. im praying that the leaders will have intelligence and foresight when choosing our future comm. so no matter what comes ahead, i'll just trust God to decide whats best for me and whats best for us.

syf drama is finally over. i would say we did well. (: i'll miss watching the cast, anticipating their cues and my cue, thinking about how MORE bimbotic i can be. the whole experience is really valuable. there's an upcoming musical competition for national day, i hope Ares can do well too!! (: pictures copped frm junhua will be posted slightly later.

choir concert on sunday. im ready. ive memorised my scores and im seriously proud of myself for being able to do that..some ppl who had been here for long are still not able to. anyway, i hope we can do well.

current mood: strEsSed.


pon sch today cuz my throat got worse. rahh. doc say i nv rest enough so in the i didnt go for rehearsals or choir prac..shall stay at home and recuperate.

before i get on to complete my halfdone, mayb outofpoint, i-dont-know-if-its-correct history term assignment on korean war, i shall do a few quizzes.
just took a test which is quite accurate. (:

Who's Your Type?

wow. i was doing history then i got SO bored, so went to do some quizzes. this is real COOL. and its really the kinds of jobs i want to do nxt time (:

Your Hidden Talent

watch out. i may just end up having one of such jobs.

WAHAHA.


today's syf drama was alright. i woke up late. sposed to reach at 645am but in the end, i woke up at 640am. wonderful rite. so thank goodness, fungus' dad came to fetch me..so i wasnt THAT late..rahh. and my throat hurts like mad..oh no, im SO dead la..am coughing away now..RAhH

went to get a new haircut..jerryale and jon and fung say my old one nice..but nvm, i like this one, more funky less eh nerdy..anyway, i like my hair (:

went with HC care group to get swensens'..shared a breaded cutlet with tracy..im not sposed to, but heck..who cares..food more impt (eh, most of the time, haha) (:

i fell asleep on the bus on the way to the restaurant for family dinner..had to walk all the way back.like a 3 bus stops. far away bus stops..too tired la..then came home and dilly-dally ard..doing nth..so right after this im going to sleep..

tmr mux wake up early AGAIN. meeting a13 history ppl 8 am at far east to go to some un conference thingy..i hope its not a waste of my time..but, at least, sally teh promised good food.. oh my, why am i always tinking abt food?! WAHAHA.

this 1 an example of a Super Boring life.


yesterday was so damn embarrassing. rahh. i was out of tune for not once but twice in a row for that stupid bells part..super embarrassing..i almost started crying cuz i was so nervous so scared and so ashamed..its like im not really embarrassed for myself but for rvchorale..its like i let down the name of rvchorale..a really horrible feeling. =X i think ms lim's having second thoughts. or no, she's Regretting for asking me to take that part. i really want to do the part well. shucks.

hmm. yesterday got a scolding again. i dont know whats wrong with us. i think its because we have so many things to prepare for.. for the J1s, we have SYF recording, sabbaticals and the concert..its too much to do in a mere one month.. its like we cant really concentrate on the concert and compromise the others..

i must admit i dont know my songs well enough. hell, im still desperately trying to learn that bell part and the words for calme..i know its an excuse but then again, i have to learn more than that 8 concert songs in like 2 months? its really horrible when we are running short of time and we are still so unprepared..

but yesterday, i was really happy cuz i realise that the bells experience really help me make better frens..with her..yep, thank God..and i also realise that if we J1s really put our whole heart to sing; to sing as 1 batch, we actually sounded nice (: the last time we sang outside the avt was really nice..to me, it was really enjoyable cuz the music is truly moving, literally.

i tink once our mindset is changed, and our batch get to know each other better, we can make better music as a HwaChong choir. that, im very sure. we have the potential. i can feel it (:


ah. today's a rather nice day (: met huixian for breakfast and some mugging at tje library. oh my, i really miss her!! it was really nice talking and catching up with her..haven seen her for awhile and yeap, i really enjoyed my short morning with her (: who says friends from 1st 3 months will fade away!!

i think huixian and i can go a long way (:

ok, ive just been tagged by tongjin..so i must do this quizz thing:

INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave acomment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

#1: love me alot (:
#2: makes me laugh
#3: sensitive.
#4: generous with his love and care for ppl
#5: tall. so we can balance out. wahaha.
#6: comfortable looking
#7: my good friend. someone i can spill my guts to. haha. sounds gross. (:
#8: accept me for who i am
#9: athelete. so i can balance out with him (again) haha.
#10: child of God (:

tagged:
fungmin
tracy
catriona
simeena
yanjun
junhua
jackson
olivia

haha. this is kinda fun.

im in a happy mood (:



i realise that God work in very remarkable ways.

i think i was given the part of bells (psalms) with sara, shaoning, gongyue, mel and kaixuan to learn a lesson of love..although we havent started working tgt, i have a strong feeling during sermon today that God wants me to learn to be humble and patient. and yes, loving, through this.. (:

ive always thought that i was a rather caring and nice person..as in im nice to most ppl..and i try to make ppl around feel happy and comfortable..but maybe, im not really doing the right things. i guess its hypocritical when i am insensitive sometimes..so yep, i must learn how to be more sensitive and patient..to love eveyone..

i need to love everyone because God loves everyone. if i love Him, i must love the ppl around me too.

i felt warm all over today, when i went to church. my sisters were really nice and caring.. thanks to xiangyu for the honey lemon, which was supposed to be good for throat..and tracy for the chocs..i love toblerone..but i promise to eat it slowly (: it was really nice of them to show their concern..it is at such times when i especially need alot of encouragement..so, i must really thank God for giving me such caring sisters..

going to meet huixian for breakfast, homework and catching up tmr.. i miss her la! (: excited for tmr (:


caregroup was refreshing. i must admit, at first i thought it would feel weird to have a christian gathering in school..haha, somewhat like a communist gathering. anyway, i enjoyed myself..its nice to know that amidst of studies and all..there are ppl who understand and care what i go through.. (: thats the meaning of caregroup right?


beautiful. the reason that i live. who am i to deserve your grace? i really hope to be God's tool to bring my best friends to Christ..really. like this fren of mine..i really wan her to receive salvation and to believe in my God..but how do i put it across to her..to let her accept it? she was resistant and reluctant to listen..and i never really tried to share with her God's msg..maybe, its time i really try to share God's grace with her.. i really pray that God will give me strength and courage to start by formally inviting her to church then let God do the job of touching her..

hmm. sidetrack a little. im really proud that i have 3 friends who successfully became fac heads. 2 from my current class, 06A13--Yee Kai and Jian Yang. another from my primary school--hongyi! woah. really think they deserve it man! (: congrats to them.

i need strength and lots of faith.


yesterday's yesterday (which was labour day (:) was an eventful day.

there was syf practice in the morning..i had breakfast at some dim sum restarant then went over to school..we finished the songs..and i felt useless..i dont know what come over me..im usually very confident in the area of choir..but im not..probably cuz of certain bossy people..or maybe cuz i feel inferior to them..why do i need to feel inferior? i have rather impressive record last time..no, cuz my piano's not really strong...so yep, thats the part where im unsure of myself..haix , i dunnt noe la.. =X

before strings concert, me fungg hongwei jerry-o and jon went to raffles city for dinner..after some deliberation, we decided to go food junction. RAHH. the food is totally HORRIBLE. and the store ppl are really weird..the store where me and fungg bought from had a 'deaf' auntie who just didnt care what we told her..i said i dont wan any chilli and fungg said she dont want clams..but in the end, WE HAD THEM. rahh. those who know will noe that i suck at eating spicy food..laksa and curry mayb okay sometimes..but mee pok with chilli is BAD.. basicallly we all agreed that food junction is a bad rep of singapore's food. =X

i was craving for more food..cuz i didnt eat alot of that stupid mee pok..so i went to buy carrot cake to share with fungg..then what happened? the 3 weird middle aged store guys tried to hit on me. Ew.

"after work ah? come shop ah? or to eat? are u singaporean? u veh chio leh..so cute." they even said "the guy wans your number leh.." raHH. haha. but i think my reation is damn zai. cuz i just gave a few random ans..ignore them and gave peiyu's signature smile (the huh? what u toking about smile.--hey its a compliment cuz its cute yeah) ..and strut off. WAHAHA. priceless.

careful of food junction guai pek-pek and deaf auntie from meepok laksa store.
WAHAHA..

the day ahead is an act bimbo day with SHORT pomp pomp skirts and shrieks. WAHAHA.

i just CANT WAIT.


RaHh. im damned pissed. my computer is giving me alot of problems. my mozilla fox is not working. my limewire is going haywire. everything about this com is WRONG. bleahx.

just gonna blog about a few things.

im glad i went for the youth service on sat..Pastor Shirley shared about praying: spritual strenghtening, spiritual comprehension and spiritual fullness.. i really hope God will enlighten me with His words and teach me how to live my life..sometimes, i fel tired..but yes, i hope to learn how to trust God fully and live my life for Jesus..

really hope i'll be able to learn more about my God through the 40 day pre-camp devotion guide..i hope HE will speak to me cuz smtimes, i find that i need assurance..i really must continue to trust God. for im sure He will heal me. and He will use me for his works.

28th april was Ares fac outing. hmm, i wouldnt say it was the best event ever, but i did enjoyed myself..i spent alot of time laughing away with my classmates..and laughing at guobin mooning over ---, lyly and jay bursting balloons and so on..haha, im really sorry for shouting so loudly..it wasnt shouting actually, it was more of screaming haha..anyway, that was ME for you--the loud crazy gurl. take it or leave it. anyway, sera said that her classmates commented, even the water in the mantle piece eh rippled when i screamed. hahahahaha. hilarious.
im really proud of lyly!! cuz she was top 3 for fac princess..well done!! as for jay, haha..he was rather cute actually..and i must say, he reminds me of my toy tortoise..partly cuz he was wearing green but also..NVM..hahahaha (:
06A13 just rocks man!

i guess it really is the people, not the programme that made the programme fun and happening. i must say, although the turn-out wasnt so good, the ares people made it work. cuz we are just a bunch of livly and fun-loving ppl yea? (:

tmr's a long long day. choir in the morning. fam thing in the afternoon. concert at nite. rahh. long long day. hope i can finish my homework and some revision for lit & history tmr..i have to.. =X

raHh.