yesterday was so damn embarrassing. rahh. i was out of tune for not once but twice in a row for that stupid bells part..super embarrassing..i almost started crying cuz i was so nervous so scared and so ashamed..its like im not really embarrassed for myself but for rvchorale..its like i let down the name of rvchorale..a really horrible feeling. =X i think ms lim's having second thoughts. or no, she's Regretting for asking me to take that part. i really want to do the part well. shucks.

hmm. yesterday got a scolding again. i dont know whats wrong with us. i think its because we have so many things to prepare for.. for the J1s, we have SYF recording, sabbaticals and the concert..its too much to do in a mere one month.. its like we cant really concentrate on the concert and compromise the others..

i must admit i dont know my songs well enough. hell, im still desperately trying to learn that bell part and the words for calme..i know its an excuse but then again, i have to learn more than that 8 concert songs in like 2 months? its really horrible when we are running short of time and we are still so unprepared..

but yesterday, i was really happy cuz i realise that the bells experience really help me make better frens..with her..yep, thank God..and i also realise that if we J1s really put our whole heart to sing; to sing as 1 batch, we actually sounded nice (: the last time we sang outside the avt was really nice..to me, it was really enjoyable cuz the music is truly moving, literally.

i tink once our mindset is changed, and our batch get to know each other better, we can make better music as a HwaChong choir. that, im very sure. we have the potential. i can feel it (: