ENCOUNTER!!
spirit filled church. my life so changed. (:

this is really one experience which was rather indescribable. right now, im still so so excited and so high (after the 4 hours of nap i took la) the only thing i can say to summarize the whole experince is probably life-changing.

i went to the camp with high expectations, i had had the feeling that someting was going to happen, hence i was filled with such high expectations for the camp. i rmb telling tracy, telling God and telling myself that my main, most impt aim for the camp is to yeah, do as the camp theme suggests, Encounter God. and i must say that God help me achieve this and i really did encounter God.

wednesday, 070606
on the first day of camp, i was feeling alittle sian. probably cuz i dont usually enjoy camps alot these days. like, you know, boring and restrictive. i thought i would be the same. yes, it would be fun but there are stuff to obey, rather different from a Holiday. but when i stepped into PGP, it struck me that no, i dont think so. this camp will be more like an holiday, it will also be a super enriching and meaningful holiday. indeed, a refreshing one. i rmb entering the worship and praise session with a great hope in my heart. to recieve God's blessings and His touch in my life.

thursay, 080606
on the second day, the teachings gave me new insights of the Holy Spirit. and made me understand His work and the meaning of it. i yearned for Him. the spiritual gifts workshop enlightened me as well. previously, i already knew roughly what my strengths are, but this test reaffirmed it. the most important part of it is that i learnt that its not so simple when serving God. it requires a really desperate and sincere heart. and that i will strive to have. i rmb Pastor Shirley telling us about her vision that God's blessings would rain. rain on all of us that very night. she told us about her stadium vision, her thoughts that Hope will do great things for God. wow. i was like just awed and really inspired. my heart desired even harder. alter call. the altar call this time was alil special. ppl who desire certain spiritual gifts will go to the church leaders for prayers. me, i desire the Holy Spirit. i was really tensed up and confused cuz i was unsure if im sposed to go ask one of the leaders to pray or what. i stood there feeling really lost till jinqi came to explain to me and fung. den i was doubting or ya questioning again whether i'll get it or not. i guess i dont have enough faith. den my shepherd prayed for me and ya, i started to believe alittle.

as xiangg n tracy prayed for fung, i stood infront of the trio to pray for the both of us. i was already crying so badly cuz its like i really really want Him tonight. its this strong inner desire that pushed me to keep praying. as i prayed i felt my faith growing stronger as i called out to God , to ask that He rain on me , that His promises be fulfilled on me. then i felt a tingling in my gut. ok, this sounds rather weird but it SO true and this sensation will never leave me. its like shivering, or erm, vibrating. but i knew i wasnt shivering because of the cold or whatsoever, i was preetyy hot then. hmm. the feeling and intensity continued to grow and spread as i cried out for more and more of God. then i felt my whole body, right from my head to my toes. vibrating. one part of my mind kept questioning, is it you? is it you? but i kept insisiting to myself that yes, God is with me! God is with me!! and with that, that stubborness and faith, i kept praying. then i spoke out. hallelujah!!

i know myself. my weakness is my questioning nature. good and bad i guess. but in this sense, its bad. cuz i dont wanto keep doubting God. no i wont. i will keep remiinding myself and He will keep poking at me. oh Lord, i want more.

at first fung didnt get it. i was crying and asking why Lord, why? her faith is so strong, stronger than mine!! but nvm, when the caregroup leaders prayed for her later, she recieved Him as well. Amen! haha. i was so excited. oh my. im still excited. (: im serious. how exciting it is when your bestie recieves the Holy spirit with you on the same night? amazing. truly amazing.

i think God is such a great God. He just knows me So well. He knows that i wont believe till i feel something. He let me feel Him to believe. He loves me so much, how can i do less?

i feel as if im reborn, man. my spiritual birthday : 080606!!

090606 friday.
teachings. cluedo. ignite. bring it on. fun, love, fellowship, God. wonderful combination. really learnt alot and enjoyed myself throughly at ignite. jumping like MAD. its as if i had everlasting energy. before ignite i was sleepy, droopy and just tired. but at ignite. haha. jumping the whole time away. and worship was again, wow. again, Pastor shirley told us about her visions. she said that God wanted to speak to us. each and everyone. although i never really heard His voice, but i felt him. i asked for a word and the word i saw was serve. followed by love. till now, im still waiting for Him to enlightened me again. and im sure He will. for He is God. Amen! then the party started. oh man! fun fun fun. it was tiring yes but super exuberating! frisbee, captain's ball, cards and talk. oh my, i really had a gd time fellowshipping with the HC caregrp and the other central ppl. seriously, i had never sweat this way for a LONG time. (dont laugh!) haha. but i had fun. oh yeah, our group is jinxed. cuz we are SO prone to injuries. haha, Leon's prayer!!! hahahaha, rofl just thinking abt it. but thank God we came out of the camp feeling alright. except tracy. she needs rest man. God bless her! oh my. oh yes, and the hyper joanna. haha. pro-frisbee. steaming girl. haha, it was 6am when we got back and 630 by the time we finish bathing. me and suet slept, while shepherd went to look for her shepherd. im still tired, but it was WORTH IT. totally.

100606.
tired and closing of camp. again, we praise and praise and praise. i just love praising and worshipping Him. oh my. wondrous feeling.

Encounter. a truly exciting experience. i got to know God in a new way, to know church ppl as well. like yes, the central B ppl and yeah, the hwachong ppl!! oh my, hilarious. i never knew ppl like robot and leon and poofy can be so entertaining and funny. the rest are just as fun man. hahaha. right-jerk left-jerk robot. super high jump TCM. poofy eugene. puffy daniel. long and tall and crappy ys. crazy jon. and so many more la. oh yes, and i got to know qingyan and cheryl much better too. spent quite some time crapping with the both of them. dont be fooled by appearances. qingyan isnt that quiet and cheryl is not that guai. hahhahaha. oh yes, and shepherd, tracy. thank God for her. suet the sexy girl. HAHA. xiangg, jinqi, nicole, ryan, fungg, daixuan and xuanting, and other fantastic ppl. thank God for them!!

thank God for bringing me to HC and into Hope to know Him again!!
God really loves me and knows me so well.
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