today ms lim dropped a lil bomb and made johnny, defeng and me do some conducting to see us conduct the choir. rahhs. i was shaking man. not my usual way of conducting. but nvm, i tried and i dont think i made a fool of myself. so thats gd. i used to want to be sc, but i realised that hwachong needs meticulous ppl and thats so not me, cuz i go for overall feel--which ms lim helps us with. so, yes, i dont think the job suits me or the choir. i realised that after i went to hope, alot of my perspectives changed. i began to see things in a different light. im more optimistic and not as selfish as before. i hope. haha. really.

act, the SCs are like sort of confirmed to me. melissa, the female conductor and a guy. so since im a true 100% female, i wont be it. i think she just asked me cuz i was SC in RV and it wont look gd on me if she didnt. but its okay, it more relaxing this way. really happy today, cuz i realise tht Sops have hope le! hehe (: realised that its not cuz we dont know, mayb we do know, just dont know how to apply. and that its cuz everyone is singing in different ways. and if we keep singing tgt, keep listening to each other and not blast, we will be able to blend well. yeah, its like the root cause is found and yeah, we can do smt abt it!! hippeee!! we shld trash one day, and throw out stuff to improve some day soon. yes, then we can improve tgt. i miss suet! but she's back .there's sarah and cheryl too. back today. yeah, soon. (:

pw was good too (:

tmr's interview. lalala. not gg to be nervous like i was today. just be myself and be relaxed. it'll be fine (: i know. okay, my shepherd's hurding me to slp. so i shall go slp now. tada! (:

happy today. (: