Friday, June 2 Y 5:21 PM i screwed up the interview big time. what rubbish lah, i dont even know why i said the things i said. i must say that this was the first interview which i was really nervous and scared. first thing, i run in late. cuz my mom la. nvm, it was my fault. anyway, i began sprouting nonsense without thinking through carefully. what an embarrassment. i just kept contradicting myself. i think i really gave the wrong impression of the true me. its not me at all. i dont think im selfcentred, who think im always right; but instead, im always gg with the flow(even in RV). im sometimes very insecure too, and not confident about my own abilities. i need assurance. at least i thought so. :( i dont even know why i answered that way. i didnt mean to offend anyone, i didnt mean to say rubbish. could see that the seniors were really confused by what i said, and yes, very pissed. or disappointed. i dont know. i was confused myself. this is what nerves do to a person. make a confident (i think im quite) into someone who's so confused, so not tgt. this is so not me, and im really ashamed. i really hope the ppl who know me will know that the person in the room today is not exactly the real me. i dont think im what i said i was. the problem with not thinking before speaking. unwise. part of me wants to be a somebody. the other just wants to be a nobody. is it possible to strike something between? i really want to play a part in making it better for all of us. but i also waaant to be able to take instructions. i really am not a one-man-show person, i need many ppl in it with me, so that i can lean on their support when im discouraged, which is not often. i want to feel the joy of seeing something work for us, that we do tgt, that achieve so much. thats what i got in RV. im starting to miss RV a hell alot more than before. RVChorale commitee and the Sec 4s were constant pillars for me. even when im down, i know that i can count on them to tide me and us over. thats the trust i have in them. is it too much to expect the same thing here? maybe, in the end, i will end up as a nobody, but i'll be a somebody in my own way, i'll try to make an impact in the lives around me. as a supporter at the side. if i become a somebody, how small it is, i'll try my best to serve and yes, listen. maybe thats what i need more--listening. but now, i can go m'sia with a lighter heart. cuz i know the possbility for me is 50-50. i really want to vote, but maybe it wont be possible anymore. nvm. God will decide. Lord, i really need strength now. im so lost. so confused. so weak. |
GIRL! yvonne commonly known as vonne. loves to sing, shop, sleep and slack. loves oats. loves carrots. loves honeydew. currently in hwachong. was from hkps, rvhs and acjc. loves RVchorale. loves Hwachong caregroup & Hope Church. loves Social.com. loves reading. loves watching tv esp american's next top model and project runway. loves watching korean drama. loves listening to music. loves the stage. loves balloons. loves pretty things. loves family. loves friends. loves Jesus. SHOUT!
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