haha, i tink this song is nice. its really sweet if you tink about it. heh. from high school musical. trust me the songs are realllly nice. (:

very happy today. God really bless hwachong alot. 3 converts, 1 recommitting to God! oh my! heh. (:

i guess sometimes, ppl say things without thinking and hurt other ppl. this is not going to be an easy situation to handle. cuz he's hmm, how to say? prideful? yeah i guess. haix, just hope that ppl will choose their words carefully before they open their mouth. otherwise they will sprout some rubbish which may hurt others intentionally or not.

yep, going off to do QT. and then off to bed! (:



today's a tiring day. basically the whole week is tiring. but im reallly excited now! heh. (:

pw interview. we got off sch early today to go for interview. hah, all of us konked off cuz we were simply toooo tired. hah. funnny stuff. and that Rajenraja teacher person was really our goldmine. got alot of new insights from her. things that will help us with ou written report. so basically the interview was rather beneficial.

the busride back to jp was so embarrassing. that gb doing all that hard gay stuff like whoo-ing and okay! all that. many ppl stared at us, or rather us, as if we were crazy nuts. i must say, all class has began to be very influenced by him. gradually, a13 ppl will start (already do--like me, ahh!) speaking in that way! HAH.

stayed after choir for comm meeting where we discussed abt our frustration regarding choir's rowdiness and all that. sarah, kim and i are losing our voices. rahhs. anyway, we stayed long after that to choreograph the dance routine for absolutely everybody. its hard work okay! reallly draining. i hope everyone will appreciate our efforts.

im very disturbed by the fact that ive climbed more steps in these 2 days than in the whole month, okay, whole week. went stairs-climbing yesterday after i came home from sch. and today, we climbed LOTS of steps, gosh we were like breathing so hard! heh. but okay, its gd exercise. (:

im so excited for tomorrow!! oh my. pirates with junhua and fungg. Closet! with so many of my loved friends! hehe. i pray that God will work his magic in the hearts of all of us tmr and forever more. hehe. really super excited for church! im waiting for God to strengthen and refresh me through service tmr!! (:


u know i love everything about project work. i love my pw grp mates. i like the researching and interviewing parts of it cuz i get to meet interesting ppl and read something that interest me. but seriously, the only thing that i distaste is ----. i SERIOUSLY cant stand him. rahhs. pest.

anyway, many thanks to shepherd traceees who calmed me down over the phone. i thought she would go mad listening to my cries over the phone. she didnt, just kept calm and encouraging. thank you (: fungmin who called me back and listened to me rant and agreed with me that someone sucks but life must go on and so on. my mom who was so worried she came into my room, consoling me not to commit suicide or smt (haha), so sweet of her to brew a cup of hot tea for me. samuel, raphael and xiangg for their encouraging smses early in the morning, really made my day. i feel so loved (:

hmms. otherwise, im super proud of myself. the choir formations. i think they loooook good. (: well the actions were not bad either. felt so accomplished. hope we can make it.

shucks. there's this econs court thing to be done and history tutorial to prepare for. i cant sleep yet and my back is aching form the eh 3 hours of typing that eom thingy. rahhs. hate it. hope the week is over soon.

i want to dedicate this entry to seraphinaho who has kindly agreed to printing 13 pages of my eom source. nice of her (:

and yirenetanyilin. if you read this, pls tag. haha! ():
back to history. again.


hehe. my new skin. i chose a few and funfunface helped me narrow down to this one. i like it. its dreamy and yeah, as bingcheng and f3 pointed out, very classy. nice. (:

heh. i kept saying: "sorry sorry sin sin sin" to myself for the past few days. heh. i was tinking abt the past yesterday and i realised how i went crazy and mad last year. and social's farewell song to me. HAH. so, im determined not to make a fool of myself again. no way. haha. so, only God and i know what im tinking now. heh. (:

indonesia history was Horrible. glad i got a E for lit. looks better than a S. but like many others, i did not appreciate their efforts~ the Red marks ALL over my paper. i couldnt even see what i was writing. okay, i know i suck at lit, but do they need to go to such extent to degrade me? us? trchs are sposed to be encouraging and caring, not demoralising and degrading. and i thought he was nice. poof. shant talk abt it. ahh.

going off to slp. yeah! maths lec later.
(: haha.


i wasnt really concentrating on sat's closet cuz i was pretty occupied with hoping that the visitors dont feel awkward or smt. hmms. yep, but i like the sermon. really refreshing and yeah, reminds me that God really did so much for me even when im so unholy. anyways, i finnally convinced her to come this coming week so im VERY excited.

although there was no one, but somehow, i wasnt that disappointed. hmm, somehow, i felt that they just need time. being hwachongians, they are not impulsive ppl (i dont know why i am impulsive when i am in hc, ahh nvm) and prob need more time to tink. to me, its maybe a blessing in disguise. cuz they'll be more sure and yeah, ready to commit totally to having God as their top priority. plus, i have faith that we'll see them in God's place, as God's children sooon. yeah. just wann to encourage everyone who tried so hard to outreach that it is not over yet. so let us not lose heart and continue to fight hard. He will not stop blessing us and will keep bringing ppl he loves back to him. yep.

my motto of the week is to live a life of love.

"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as Christ God forgave you. Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself as a fragant offering and sacrifice to God." Ephesians 4: 32, 5:1-2

this verse struck me deeply when i was doin QT on thursday. loving others just as Jesus loves me. can i do it? im really gonna to put effort into living a life of love. (:

ahh. havent done gp. shuacks. why are we doing such laammme stuff. poof. bye.


for the past few days or well the past week, i was emotionally very down and spiritually weak. its not what i want seriously. i mean i want to be strong, esp these 2 weeks so that i'll be able to be convincing enough to bring my friends to church. i was very worried about my stone-ness towards every single aspect of my life be it studies or choir or friends.

Praise the Lord. im fine now. at least im relaxed and rather happy now. hee. i took tracy's advice and spent a longer time with God today. just reading the Bible, praying and scribbling whatever that comes to my mind on my notebook. i was just eh stoning or you can call it meditating and i was "told" to read thessalonians, a book that ive never read in my whole life. at first i was like huh? what does God wanto tell me. then i read this.

"But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. "
Thessalonians 5:8

read 1:2b too and i found that thats what life's all about: faith, love and hope. i began to wonder if im living my life this way. by loving myself, God and the ppl ard me enough. if i had faith in God and myself. if i had hope. not enough, God seems to tell me. i want Everything. and yes, from now on, i'll try to commit myself completely to my Lord and see where He leads and takes me to. i think He's training me to be patient and to learn more before really stepping out to speak for Him. and i'll learn, really.

i pray that Lord will change the hearts of my friends. no, i know He will.

JESUS rocks.


saturday. i enjoyed myself alot.

okay, i feel that its really dumb to go wait 1 hour plus then sing, and that whole "performance" ting only lasted for less than one min. seriously, i know its impt to do a gd job and all that crap abt upholding the name and whatsoever. i just cant help rolling my eyes after the whole thing. i could have been at breakthrough meeting ok. and i want to be there since i havent been to one yet. rahhs, i will go to the nxt one this sat. thats for sure.

church. i missed worshipping. rahhs. i love worshipping. its not all about the songs, the mood the atmosphere. yes, i do love singing to and with God. but what i love more is just feeling peaceful in his presence. its like all quiet and excited at the same time. its a feeling that is hard to descibe. just hope that i'll be able to bring the ppl i love to experience this joy and love as well.

i love rvchorale sec4s-05. went out to celebrate songhua's birthday, return home late, got a scolding. but i really emjoyed myself alot. i realised how i miss just being with this wonderful crazy bunch of ppl whom i shared so much memories with. just talking, crapping sharing lame jokes or eating tgt. oh my. i really do miss them. those who werent here yesterday--simna, xiaolan, xinyi, xingqun, shatricia and others, you are greatly missed! we bought this cake which looked fake, had a THICK layer of cream which was not bad. heh. and we played a fool with the cake, victor rolling a ball of cream with his hands, and zhirui lighting a candle for the cream. heh. songhua sera and yanjun. wild crazy ppl. stood in the neoprint shop for ages, then finally decided not to take any. played at arcade, the bishi bashi ting till our hands were red, and cheating at the squirrel thing to top the score and get a fruittella. haha. i really had fun man.

i realised how diff it was. i used to put choir over class and sometimes even over social. but now, choir isnt my top priority anymore. i put class over choir, i put cg over choir. i know im sposed to feel guilty abt this, but im not. in fact, i feel happier with my classmates and caregroup frens. more at ease. there's nth to be afraid of, no stress. just pure fun and bliss.

i realise that im not spiritually steady enough. true enough, im better than last time. but yeah, i still have a long way to go. i realise i always face with difficult and complex questions which i have problems answering. yeah. and sometimes, i feel discouraged that well, why cant i ans this or that. rahhs. somehow, i feel inadequate these few days. in everywhere. choir, class, hw, personal and spiritual life. God, i need you to pick me up soon.

just had a workout. i need a bath.


THURSDAY
heh. soft toy day. although many of our classmates didnt bring their soft toys, we had fun really .refer to 06a13's blog for pictures. heh. guess we went mad playing and fooling ard with those cuties. ruiyi got scolded cuz of tracee's bear.the teachers looking at us as if we had horns when we placed our toys on our tables. haha. it was rather ridiculous lah. yeah.

caregroup. i love caregrp. it was very encouraging to hear so many testimonies about God's grace upon us. i was chairperson for this caregrp meeting. was my first time for hope and i tried my best. heh, thanks to all who gave me lots of encouragement (: ooh, the ladder game was fun. sermon d and testimonies were inspiring. i really learnt alot from the caregrp people. yep. its hard to describe how belonged i feel. (: although the history people--tracee fungg and me had history the nest day (which is today), im really glad i went for caregrp, cuz caregrp really refreshed me. yeahs. (:

FRIDAY
not feeling well. woke up with a headache and as usual the stomachache. sorry hc caregrp, was late for prayer meet. but i reached in time for leon and jon to pray for my contacts and also fro the whole grp to pray for breakthrough. yep, though i wasnt feeling well for the rest of the day, i felt an inner peace within me. and maybe it was a blessing in disguise, cuz i went home aft sch (instead of gg for choir) and caught up with my sleep. and im feeling much better now. so yep, im almost well again. (:

got my gp essay. yeahs. i was super surprised when i got back my results. i not only passed, i got an A. though my language is super lousy but well, thank God for letting me remember my sub geog stuff about tourism so i could pull it off. amen. it was just like Olevels last yr and i did a similar qn. God truly helped me in that, and im really grateful.

talked to her. tried to convince her to go for closet. hmm, i could feel that she had alot of questions and was very uncertain and not very willing. hmm. i tried to ans the question the best i could and hope she could understand and comprehend what i was trying to say. i still had a question which im not sure how to ans, but will ask tracee tmr. and im sure that the next time i talk to her, the Holy Spirit will continue to put the words in my mouth. i know she's very reluctant to go. cuz i love her alot and want her to be able to experience the love and presence of God in her life. i rmb something in John which said that the way to evangelise is to have a sincere heart. now, im trying to let her understand my heart. i want her to convert but i will not force her. i know she feels uncomfortable abt being a stranger to everything and everyone. but i dont want her to live her life without knowing about God, i dont want her to regret later in her life. i hope and pray that i will be able to convince her cuz i know, i know deep in my heart that if and when she's in church, in God's place, God will personally touch and let her understand. Lord, help my friend, help this girl who's a sister to me. let her be more receptive to this special msg, let her open her heart to accept the Truth. i know it will be difficult trying to convince her, but i will never stop. not now, not ever. cuz i love her and want the best for her.

college day tmr. sian but yes, there's church service tmr and yeah, i love svc. (:

i was stoning at home, looking at the wall clock and alarm clock. i looked at the second hand of the alarm clock, watching it move and tried to see the mvment of that of the wallclock too. i tried for sometime and got alittle dizzy and confused with which was moving first, or if they were moving at the same time. okay, the point is not that im crazy and have nothing to do. but i thought about it and realised its about life too. we cant focus on two or more things at one time (like the clocks?). we can only focus on one thing at one time. which is this one thing in my life? my answer to myself was it shld be God. and God alone. i guess it is a timely reminder in such challenging times that i should fix my eyes upon God and God alone; and not waver to other distractions. more often than not, we have alot of commitments and priorities. but i guess, what shld be our main and first priority is God. heh. (:

inner peace.





haha. today was a hilarious day. full of laughter and yes, sleepiness as well. first up was swimming. imagine the whole class "never bring swimming stuff". its rather ridiculous actually. most of us just hoped to pon it. hmm, but surprisingly, we didnt got a BIG scolding or get called back for makeup swimming lessons. mr ling (our swimming coach) was actually quite nice. he just made us walk around the pool for twenty minutes. heh. rahhs but i'll be swimming with shijia in the training pool nxt wk. hahaha. kinda fun lah.

i fell asleep during lit lecture. haha. i was extremely drowsy, for no particular reason. and i was encouraged by jeriel's action of sleeping with his head bowed down, so i just eh bowed my head over my books and slept. and i was right in the middle of the lecture theatre. haha. priscilla said i motivated her to sleep as well. HAH.

the seriously funny part of the day was actually after sch, when me, olivia and fungg left school for tiong bahru plaza, to conduct a interview. wow. this two girls are absolutely CRAZY. we went totally bonkers on the bus, 156. i think due to madness after waiting for the bus for so long. we started talking about what if i marry fung's bro, and she marries mine. (that's if we have OLDER brothers, which we do not). then fungg went crazy and was like: "so i call my bro my bro-in-law?" we really went mad trying to analysize the whole thing. got very blur. hahah. and even on our way home, we were still deliberating about that issue. HAH. haha, in the end, fungg got to a conclusion la. haha.

there was this auntie when we were having ya kun (yum!) who asked us many questions. she seemed like the kinda of mothers who dont know anything abou the current education system and who has a child who does not bother to tell her anything. we felt really sorry for her lah. so poor thing.

oh yes, on our way home, fungg told us about the sheep ting. if we use a wet cloth to cover a sheep's eyes, the sheep will think its drowning and die. HAHAHA!! olivia and i were laughing like crazy. cuz its seriously funny. so ridiculous! haha. she went on to talk about mutton (after the sheep died) and fungg talked about cotton candy (sheep reminds her of that) and i talked about putting the sheep on a stick to look like cotton candy. funny stuff. i think we embarrassed ourselves on the mrt. but who cares? we had FUN. (:

hmm, by the way, i think our pw group rocks lah. like today, the 3 of us accomplished much stuff and the whole grp is also making major progress. heh. we rock. (:

ok that ass of a brother is pestering me for the com. irritating. pissed. rahhs. bye.


hmm, i hate headaches. and stomachaches. i think the supplements that my mom has been forcing me to eat these few days are giving me the stomachaches. imagine the pain in your tummy on-and-off during lessons. really horrible feeling. add a headache to that and there! rahhs.

the best way to cure headache is to sleep. i havent been sleeping well ever since even before blocks. and thats the reason for my bad moods too. rahhs. i fell asleep before i did qt yesterday lah. bleahx.

caregroup yesterday. hmms, i had fun again and talking to the jc caregrp ppl really made my day. for once during cg, i dont have my headache and stomachache. (: nicole and jinqi leaving us to pioneer another grp. hmms, as jinqi had said we must go on and should be happy for them cuz they're transfering for a good and exciting cause. hope that God will continue to bless these two impt sisters in this tough project. but with God, all things are possible. we are gonna miss them (:

okay, gg tuition later. then come home to watch the last episode of liu guang sheng lin. then i'll watch high school musical. haha. movie and tv day ahead. (:



yep. today is the first official no-exam school day. damnn sian la. i was so sleepy for the whole day. econs was okay cuz of the super act cute and bimbotic trch who's rather entertaining, keeps me awake. math was rather boring. history--my goodness, its SO DRY la. rahhs. choir was rather lame cuz of the stoopid rehearsal. but then after, it was not bad.

hmm, learning this ultra difficult song. i believe we can do it man. its like although we are skeptical about our abilities, i think we will just chiong lor. at least i hope we will la. vocal trainings coming up. seriously hope our voices will be more trained. mine is rusty esp aft a long period without singing. ahh, must work man.

there's leaps on sat--grooming which is sposed to be quite interesting and fun. hmms, heard that there'll teach us how to choose our hairstyles, specs, clothes etc. haha, when funfunface heard this, he aborted his ponning plans!! HAHA. but!! clashes with service again. im going to leave halfway man. oh man, im so awaiting service lah. saturday come quickly please!!

i think im ready. (:


LIT.
wonderful, sure get A. haha. yeah, sorry sarah, i think you're going to give me the treat. haha. what we had discussed yesterday didnt come o0ut lah. so sad. but nonetheless, it was a really fruitful discussion and i learnt alot from all the inputs. my thanks to tracee, fungg, jeriel, guobin and jon. u guys made me understand stuff that i wont be able to on my own. (:

anyway, yesterday's shepherding was fun. learnt alot again. i must really note my behaviour from now on lah, cuz im God's ambassodor on earth. ooh, went for rt again. bugis street. so unlucky cuz the shops were closed in the morning and only opened at 2pm. but then tracee and i went walking here and there. and went to toilet a couple of times. basically lagging away. but ohh!! we bought aLOT of earings. haha. nice nice hoops. and studs. i felt crazy, considering that i already have more than 40 pairs at home. but then again, thats what retail's for right? tracee bought this nice Brown jacket. whoopies, cheap cheap.

oh, by the way, island creamery's MUD PIE rocks. oh, it melted in my mouth (:

back to the present, today's lunch, movie (in the library), meeting and dinner was rather fun. i guess im still alittle awkward with the exco, cuz i havent really know them well enought to hun(4) with them. really really hope that we can be much better friends than now in the near future. and not stick ard in grps. yeah, but it was fruitful. ahh. i want to go THERE. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO CLASH? rahhs.

the movie session in the library was hilarious. HAHA. johnny wanted irobot. i objected cuz i dislike robots (sorry, robot) and huiying watched it before. so we ended up watching hitchhikers which was a stupidly funny and crazy and lame show. and guess what? i fell asleep. i just took a chair to support my feet and another my head and zonked out. guess lit was TOO draining. haha. yeahs.

i think God is preparing me to serve Him. my QTs were all about my willingness and readiness to serve Him. but what does He want me to do? tell me, Lord.

i want her in too. really. but its hard, in true fact even harder than normal, to approach someone whom u r so close to, whom u love so much.

anyways, i should stop now. bye.


haha, today was super fun. oh my. i bought a new roxy wallet. a topshop top. a nice chunky purple necklace. 2 notebks which are freakin nice. haha. not bad. going with tracee, and most likely fung and junhua again on monday!! yeahs. (:

i really like shopping. just gets me super excited. its like whoos. i just forget everything and enjoy myself. but the ting abt shopping is that you must have the capital to shop. otherwise, will feel very sad wan. haha.

care group was quite fun. haha played lame lame games, but i enjoyed it. the ppl are really fun-loving and i always feel comfortable with them to just shoot rubbish and know that i dont mean anything bad..haha. (:

okay, i promised jonathan that i will do the quiz thing so here it is:

Golden Rules:
[x] Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
[x] Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
[x] Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
[x] Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
Your 10 Favourites::
Favourite Colour-- pink, purple, red. they are NOT bimbotic colours ok.
Favourite Food -- apple crumble
Favourite Song-- come home running and above all
Favourite Movie-- princesses' diaries, x-men 1,2,3
Favourite Sport-- ice skating counted? i like tennis too, but i dont play.
Favourite Season-- autumn. the leaves are so pretty. (:
Favourite Day of the week-- friday. service nxt day. friday last day in wk, can slack.
Favourite Ice-cream Flavour-- chocoalte chip, cappacino, belgium chocolate
Favourite Book-- not sure, too many.
Favourite anime/cartoon-- was: prince of tennis. now: dunno?

9 currents::Current mood-- eyes closing but im still awake.
Current clothes-- rv shorts and some random shirt
Current desktop-- eh mr bean (courtesy of my brother who loves mr bean)
Current Toe-nail colour-- faint pink
Current Time-- 12:45am
Current Annoyance(s)-- lit is on tuesday. rahhs
Current thought-- im kinda tired now.
Current boyfriend/ girlfriend-- im single. singlehood is fun. haha.
Current book you are reading-- carolina moon. thriller with romance. nora roberts.

8 Firsts::
First Best Friend-- forgot already.
First Crush-- SWJ. haha. yes. of was it HCB? haha.
First Movie-- huh? hello do you tink i can rmb?
First Piercing-- sec 3
First Lie-- cant rmb
First Music-- i tink it was a mozart.
First Car-- i dont drive. i dont intend to drive.
First Handphone-- nokia 3300, sposed to be the first colour phone.

Lasts::
Last Cigarette-- i dislike smokers. sorry.
Last Drink-- Water
Last Car Ride-- eh bus counted? or mrt?
Last Crush-- HAHA. i tink it was some ac choir senior
Last movie seen-- scary movie 4. s-u-c-k-s.
Last Phone Call-- ahh sera.
Last CD played-- ahhaha, jon's burnt cd which he generously passed to me (:

Have you evers::
Have you ever dated one of your best friends-- not really. he wasnt my Best fren.
Have you ever broken the law-- small stuff. everyone does lah ok. jaywalking is considered.
Have you ever been arrested-- i wont be here now if i did serious stuff i guess.
Have you ever skinny-dipped-- no. but i wanto try it one day. sounds pretty cool. haha.
Have you ever been on TV-- no. not yet XP haha.
Have you ever kissed someone u didnt know-- yes. not someone, but something: a tree.

5 things you are wearing:
1. my specs
2. my pink hair-band
3. rv shorts
4. teeshirt
5. undies

4 things you've done today

1. RETAIL THERAPY!!
2. CAREGRP
3. took a mrt and bus
4. blogg. haha.

3 Things you can hear rite now
1. worship songs
2. fan whirling
3. myself typing.

2 things you cant live without
1. God.
2. my loved ones

Things you do when you are bored:
1. read story books.
2. blog
3. watch tv
4. SLEEP!!

5 people to do this quiz!
1. Simna
2. Yanjun
3. Olivia
4. Jocelyn
5. gladys

okay, im damn tired now. going to do QT. bye.