for the past few days or well the past week, i was emotionally very down and spiritually weak. its not what i want seriously. i mean i want to be strong, esp these 2 weeks so that i'll be able to be convincing enough to bring my friends to church. i was very worried about my stone-ness towards every single aspect of my life be it studies or choir or friends.

Praise the Lord. im fine now. at least im relaxed and rather happy now. hee. i took tracy's advice and spent a longer time with God today. just reading the Bible, praying and scribbling whatever that comes to my mind on my notebook. i was just eh stoning or you can call it meditating and i was "told" to read thessalonians, a book that ive never read in my whole life. at first i was like huh? what does God wanto tell me. then i read this.

"But since we belong to the day, let us be self-controlled, putting on faith and love as breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. "
Thessalonians 5:8

read 1:2b too and i found that thats what life's all about: faith, love and hope. i began to wonder if im living my life this way. by loving myself, God and the ppl ard me enough. if i had faith in God and myself. if i had hope. not enough, God seems to tell me. i want Everything. and yes, from now on, i'll try to commit myself completely to my Lord and see where He leads and takes me to. i think He's training me to be patient and to learn more before really stepping out to speak for Him. and i'll learn, really.

i pray that Lord will change the hearts of my friends. no, i know He will.

JESUS rocks.