rmb that burden for south africa? i must say, i feared the thought of going there. i told and sort of argued with God that i dont wanna go there. but yesterday or rather yesterday's yesterday i was worshipping God and i felt so touched that i made a promise to God that if He asks me to go, i'll go. in faith. and then the word came and it was nigeria. i went to ask around.
is there a hope church in nigeria?
is nigeria in south africa?

the answer to both questions was NO. and i was really confused. serious. cuz i dont know what God's telling me. but thank God for Raphael who gave me sound advice over msn. and i learnt a lesson that God probably thinks i need. it is not ambitious about planting a church in nigeria. theres nth impossible in God. this burden. i may be a go-er, a supporter in prayer or financially. but what i really need to do first is to build myself strong and firm in God's word. and to hone my skills for ppl. i need to learn how to spread God 's word within my circle first before i venture further into an unknown territory. thank God for letting me know this. it really spurs me up to study and do well so that i can go further for Him. my current aim is political science, i dont know if this aim will last. but right now, that will be the aim im working towards.
i wanto be shining like a star!

i didnt do much today. only did monopoly. talk to me about un-productiveness. haha. but it was a relaxing day. spent a good time with God in the morn, some time i nthe afternoon just flipping through the bible and i fruitful time over msn.
i really like my life now. though there are exams coming up, somehow, im not as worried as before (i still am. esp for econs and math and lit. haha, basically everything) . i guess its cuz i know there's God beside and behind me all the way. and that i know He'll be there to catch me when im tired or weary. sometimes, a word or a verse can give me so much courage and faith to carry on. im so amazed by Him.
some ppl claim that its impossible to know if God exist, but how can i deny Him? its just so impossible to. i can feel the wave of peace and sense His presence. the words He drop in my heart. do they just come out of nth? i cant possbily grow wiser overnight! im just so so so thankful for God's decision. no matter what, i know God has the best plans for me. will i rather believe in God's miraculous power or man's foolish claims? i choose to trust in my Father.
ahhh, there's really no limit to my gratefulness to my Lord.

i love you. how this phrase has became a cliche. in songs, in movies and even in real life. sometimes i wonder what is love really? i think im a dreamy girl who believes in everlasting love and happy endings. i think true love exist. it does. think of the cross. think of Jesus and His death for us. this love really lasts forever. i rmb passion of the christ which our cg watched tgt at cheryl's hse in june. i rmb asking God, why? and the ans was i love you. now that im reminded of this again, think this is so gonna give me strength whenever i feel alone or tired or forgotten.

its late. 2 am. i pray for strength this week and lots of determination and discipline to study for my promos.
i love you, Lord. i really do.
thank you. (: