okaaay, im gonna blog about this whole week. monday tue wed thurs friday sian. haha. no lah. actually ive been studying with my caregroup since sunday. EVERYDAY. in school. and i must say, i enjoyed myself alot with my CG. they're really crazy and wacky ppl. yes, we are really noisy, esp the guys and smtimes(often, haha) i lost my concentration, but i really love this bunch of ppl. thinking about them just make me wanto cry. (:

i had two breakthroughs this week which brought me alot closer to God. im reminded of what tracy told me once, that when we go through troubles, we either grow closer to God or further. and i really thank God that it was closer for me (:

on monday, i seriously dont know what happen to me, but i broke down. i was cold and harsh to everyone who talked to me, and finally ran and sat on the toilet seat crying to myself. and i asked God many questions and really poured all my prayers, all my requests, my sorrows, my everything to Him. i knew i worried my cg, but i really needed that time with God. its when im really desperate that i really depend and rely on God and God alone. God spoke to me very clearly about his promises and adviced me on many things.

the one thing that hit me the most was His question:

i really thank God and my CG for being so extremely supportive even though i was stubborn and acted like a child. i thank God for bringing me to HC and for putting me in Hope.

my 2nd breakthrough was on wed. metamophosis. i was so encouraged when i saw the desire and want that my caregroup members displayed for God's Holy Spirit. huiying, jiexun and yongsheng. really thank God that He blessed them with the power of the Holy Spirit to experience what i had experience: peace and joy. (: when we were praying for Suet, i was just praying and a song came to me: the Potter's Hand and i just sang softly as the others prayed. the thing is i havent sang this song for ages, and when i tried to sing it on my way home, i couldnt rmb a single line of the verse! i was like ohhh my. okaay.
second thing. while praying, i felt compelled to flip my bible. at first i was like, what if it was just me? really hesitated. but then i still flipped. and i shared the verse after that. something from John. then Daniel was like i think you have the gift of knowledge, saw you flipped the bible once before too. i was like HUHHH? i dont think soo. was reaaaly doubtful about that la. even tracy was like wah yvonne you said very wise things today. haha. i was surprised myself too.

was doing QT and asking God about this today and i felt compelled (again) to read, this time, colossians. rather random,i was thinking.


i felt that this was God confirming this gift that He's giving me and is wanting me to hone. i was really freaked but surprised. i kept asking God why me? i know im still doubting, still being skeptical. i dont wanto test God by asking Him to show me a word tmr at svc or smt. but nonetheless, if this was a gift, i pray that God will teach me how to convey the msg He wants me to give. okaaay, im still scared but well. (: thankful that God wants to use me. (:

anyways, i have a burden for South Africa. was on the bus admiring trees when the thought came to me on sunday. fungmin was saying that God speaks to me alot. i must say, He always used the Bible and ppl around me to give me hints about what He wants me to know. but i think He's speaking to me more than ever, esp after monday. i think im learning to seek Him more and more. i guess its really true that the more you desire, the more you seek, and the more He shows Himself! (:

have i said that i love my CG? i really love them alot. thanks to samuel for helping me ask for my beautiful balloon. not like mr leonzyboy who got my beautiful ballon dirty and wanted to ask me for 50cents to get the B for me. hahahaha. (: although there are dumb ppl like leonzyboy, yongsheng and mr. BH, i still love them alll (: they are the first bunch of ppl who brings a smile to my face each time i think about anyone of them (: im really grateful to find Hope and Hwachong CG. love them all. oh my, im like super repetitive.

hahah, here's a pic of mr jiexun being very very lame and made. if he bullies anyone, come to me! ive another pic to blackmail him. hahahaha. (:


this is another one on one of my favourite ppl from caregroup. guess who. hahha.


hahaha. see ya all. oh my. its early in the morn. service later!!
exciting stuff maan. (: