HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANJUN!!
(belated, heh.)


nice chocolaty cake!! from breadtalk pls.

the cake was delicious right. she was so surprised. haha. im still amazed that we're celebrating each others' birthday. last time in rv, it wasnt even planned and all that. but guess as we grow older, and became closer (since distance makes the heart fonder (:), birthday celebrations have been more fun then last time! (: really do love these ppl. are we going backpacking after As tgt then? hehe.

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i just felt so sad. so burdenered. the weary face, the confusion and tiredness behind the seemingly joyful and cheerful front. really led me to tears. i really dont want anyone to be left behind as the whole group is growing so much. i look at him. i look at her. and im worried and i cant help sighing.
faith. i think this is something i really need alot. both for spiritual and for physical. i was thinking. hey i didnt pray for that for like ages. issit because im starting to see others being more impt? or is it that im just too demoralised by the lack of fulfillment of promise? then jonathan and daniel said the word: patience.
i didnt forget, God seemed to say, i just want to you to learn to endure, to learn, to struggle, to believe and then grow.
i asked God why?
He said: cuz i love you and i want the best for you.
i asked God again, why is she resistant? i cant bear to not see her for eternity.
God said to endure and continue working on her.

i didnt speak God's word during the prayer meet cuz i was alittle scared.
but God said, and this is not only for me but for every believer out there:
Be equipped. for the Harvest is here.

today has been an emotional roller coaster for me. i learnt to feel for others more. and i learnt that faith must be accompanied by patience. this is something that i needed to learn.

Thank you, Lord, for reassuring me.