i love the way God is using me now.

went to my ah ma hse with the intention of speaking to my aunts only. i wasnt prepared to talk to my cousins or pray for them. one of them was overly stressed, while the other did badly for prelims--she was feeling so sianned studying probably cuz she was demoralised and weary of studying which produce the results short of her expectations.

it actually started out as a normal senior-to-junior kinda discussion about how to study and all that. then i guess i started asking about their aims and goals for doing well and what pushes them to study and all that. then it poured out. i started telling my cousin (who did badly for prelims) how God will help her if only she depends on Him. i told her how God has helped me get into my dream school, how He brought me to Hope and how He has never given me up nor left me alone. i told her how my perspectivies towards life, esp studies have changed. it used to be for myself, but now it is to glorify God. and even if i dont do well, but i remain steadfast in God's promises and plans, i'll be able to shine for God.
i think i manage to drive into them the point that with God, nothing is impossible and that with God, nothing can be against us.
i urged them to study with Jesus and to truly depend and rely on His strength and faithfulness. i think both of them are touched. but i hope that they will rmb that God is always with them and that He will always be there for them.
hopefully my prayers and God's presence will encourage her(them) to move forward and to really study hard to be God's light in the world. and that through this period of tough times, their relationships with God will improve tremondously.

today i really saw how God is using me in my family and im so fired up to do more! im praying that God will continue to use me in more areas, esp in my family cuz i really wanto bring my cousins back closer to God.

tmr is math and gp. i'll be lying if i say im not nervous or afraid. i am. but i will learn to accept my grades and trust in God's plans for me. yeah.

i want more of you, Lord.