well okaay. i didnt do well for promos this time.

studied really hard for econs. really did. but got an U. argh. sometimes its just irritating that hard work doesnt produce any results. sian. but okaay. at least i have an E overall. though im rather unhappy, there's nth i can do. perhaps, its really not about how much i study. its time to revise the way i write my essays--no matter for econs, history, lit or gp.

i had an incredible time during lit today. my gosh, everyone, esp mr junhong just went totally CRAZY. we started reading out auggie's comments. dynamics, stresses and all that. hahahaha. it was totally ridiculous listening to all that: NO. pay ATTENTION to LANGUAGE. etc. haha. had a time of my life! it is really the First time in a long long while that i laughed till i got cramps. HAHA.

but well. after crying a lil for econs, and getting crazy during lit, i calmed down. compared to some ppl, i probably should be laughing or crying for joy already. here i am, sulking cuz i got an E instead of a C?! comparably, my problems and unhappiness sound SO trivial.
then i started to think again. its not the end. its only the beginning! nxt year's A levels will be the important exam. and right now, promos is well, to promote me, and also to help me identify my problems so that i can arrest them and do better next year.
i believe God has a reason for giving such grades now.
and i trust in His plans.

some ppl may say i sound like im a optimistic person. perhaps i am. but this strength and hope for the future doesnt come from myself, it comes from God.
with God, i know that impossible things are made possible.
if i love Him, i will trust Him.

my patience has almost reached a limit. i feel very very very bad. but i cant help feeling this way. argh. makes me feel like im a totally mean person. im sposed to accept him for who he is, but sometimes, its just alil difficult. maybe im complicating matters now. but well, i will try. God help me!