okaay, i didnt want to come online today.
but i decided to. first to check my email, cuz i receive a msg to.
and also to blog about how God has blessed me today.

okaay. im the Emcee for MAF. and guess what? MAF's like a week away. and after promos, we only have 3 days to prepare the script pls. raaaahhs. Social usually spent months (at least 3) perfecting and preparing the Emcees for performances and all that. wonderful. the two other Emcees are ruixiong (whom i knew from sabbaticals) and charmaine (Jonathan brought her to church before). nice ppl i must say. so, im not worry whether i can mix or whether i'll be more stressed than having fun. im alittle nervous. and just alil regretful.
but i guess, God has a reason when He gave me the hint to try out for the role. i dont know why i got in (prob too few ppl tried haha), but i know God put me in for a reason.
perhaps, God wants me to know these two ppl better and show Jesus's life and love through me!! no matter what, i believe that since God gave me this job, He will make sure i dont screw it up, and do smt through me! hehe. i must and will have faith.
no matter how impossible the task may seem, it is a test of patience and no doubt, faith that He will help me accomplish my task!! (:

so what if im gonna be so so so busy after promos? its gonna be a fruitful one. why? cuz i believe strongly that its from God and so what i'll be doing will help to expand His kingdom in someway!
like for example, my caregroup ppl can tell their friends that: hey you know the emcee for maf? (hope its not to criticise how lousy i was or smt. bleahx) she's from my caregroup from church!
then the fren will go: really? wow. whats church like? and all sorts of things.
and maybe we can bring more ppl to God through such ways! hehe.
be hopeful, be optimistic about my abilities pls, and do pls encourage me cuz i need confidence and lots of prayer!! =D

okaay, maybe i deserve to be scared and nervous and whatever for going home late. (i was studying okaay! not playing. bleahx, math).
but God didnt leave me alone or condemn me, or refuse me comfort! haha.
after leon and xinyi got off 77, i was feeling alittle scared and freaked of gg home alone. cuz my mom and i watched crimewatch last night where they showed a rape case at night and so on. and i was really scared. plus, my mom already warned me not to go home late, cuz my block has quite alot foregin workers and so on. so i was afraid of firstly, getting scolded, and second for my safety.
i was praying and asking God to bring me home safely. changed to bus svc 66. and i continued to worry and nervy. then suddenly, one of my two neighbours from my block AND my floor turned from beside me to smile at me!
i was so surprised can!! (:
i thought i saw an angel in disguise sent by God to give me assurance and protection!
and i was like, God you know me so so well! really really amazed by God's little action. funny thing was i never really spoke or had any interaction with these neighbours, cuz they lived at the other end. hmms.
this was not the end. when we got down from the bus, i wanted to walk behind them, but the inner voice said no, to walk infront of them. cuz these two will watch over my back, just like God's watching mine.
this is not only a lesson for me that warned me not to go home too late anymore, it also reminded me about faith and dependence in God.
i feel so blessed to be a child of God- blessed with peace and protected with love and saved by grace.
God, thank you for reassuring me about your faithfulness and that you'll watch over my back whereever i am. (:

today's a whole math day. math and more math. although i havent done as much as my friends, i know in my heart that God will help me. i shall just try to work and practice as much as i can, and depend on God for the rest.
really like Raphael's teaching today about letting Jesus take the wheel in my life and do the driving. right now, there are many things which im unsure about--like the MAF emcee thing, like my math, like my sea history, like my serving, my role for God in my family and extended family. but well, i'll put my faith in God and let Him drive me to my destinations.
to me, it is really true that we truly depend on God when we only have Him. but i dont want this attitude only during times of trouble, trials and problems; i want it for everyday.
a child-like dependence and faith every single day.

it feels good to be a child of God.

haha, realised this entry has ALOT of colours and that many different sizes of words. heh. i like.