haha. i realised i havent been blogging for ages. well, a week or so. so here i am.

right now, im watching this taiwanese drama: devil beside you. haha, i must say although i dont really like the idea of a jie-di lian, but the show's quite nice. think the girl's really quite pretty. im awaiting to watch the kiss show. heh.

shucks. im really really broke lah. cant stand it. chalet money, concert money, and money to buy xmas gifts and all that. how am i gonna find the money? and im very determined not to keep atm-ing. its bad bad bad. sheesh. i need to find the way to get some money, or save some, sooon. it will be nice if i start getting free lunches or dinners....haha. no lah, im independent. sigh.

just wondering. how am i gonna spend xmas and new year's day this year? last year, i spent xmas with yanjun and simna, and haha, new year's with my fam. i wonder how it'll be this year. xmas will be spent carolling, i guess. xmas eve, i hope i'll be spending with my beloved caregroup after Christmas ESS. what about new year's? must start plaaning soon. im very excited for xmas this year. prob cuz i have more ppl that i want to give gifts and wishes to, and cuz i found a new family. prob wont be as lonely as past years! yeahs. though i'll be happy singing for ppl on xmas day, i wouldnt mind sharing it with ppl i truly love with all my heart. haha. im starting to go lovey-dopey. ew. haha.

haha. here are some penang pictures!! (: taken from zhongwei's blog.
jason actin macho agst kim and the rest of us being v. surprised!

lynnette and me!

kimberly and me!

some of the girls at penang airport

hwachong choir @ Penang airport

my fave alto-yuhan!! hah. think this photo's taken really nicely!

yuhan and me. sera's the extra. hah.

ACT cool. dao. chio. cute.

trying to act sixties. hah.

hah. quite nice. very fun too. (:

unglam lah.

bimbo(with brains!) alert. the catch-me-if-you-can look. hee.

sera, kim, me.

pink, spongebob, green.

unglam plus act-cute.

hah. i look funny laughing. caught unaware.

jason and me!

i love this bunch of supper ppl! last night at penang~

i find this photo ridiculously funny. hah. basses and their da-sao! hah.

hwachong choir with ms lim, ms ng and mr quek.

choir girls!

yuhan, yubai, yvonne, luosha!

the jumping shot! hahaha.

having dinner on the first night!

some girls with mr photographer. i like this shot! very cool.

exchange with SAJC, TJC, NJC

family photo-sajc, tjc, hwachong, njc choirs!

ms tham, mr tay and ms lim!

xinyi, yvonne, cheryl and sera with lychee ice!

haha! had the exchange with these choirs on 28th and 29th nov. its really quite an enriching experience. learnt alot. made new friends. met old friends and MS THAM, plus Mr Tay too. heh. i suddenly rmb how we used to have lots of physical exercises as warm-ups. all the actions, the stretching...suddenly felt very unfit. but well, i felt a revival. so no matter what, i'll try to bring some of these back to hwachong choir. though we really are the lousiest there now, but with the 5 months ahead and with everyone's hearts--we will make it. that, im sure. no use getting upset now. just rmb the lesson, rmb the humilation and climb up from it. lets just move on together. (:
i was so glad that ms tham rmb me. that i could still the connection btw the both of us. i was a lil afraid that she'll forget me, or she'll just brush me off as another one of her students. but well, she didnt. haha, the little actions during practices, performances, warm-ups, lunch, even when we're saying our goodbyes say alot. that she still rmb me, still likes me and well, still care. (: that really made my days! =D really do miss her.
but well, its not like i dont like ms lim, i do, really. just perhaps, we're still not close to each other yet. and that takes time. its getting along now, but i hope i'll get to be closer to her soon too.
im really very lucky to meet warm and caring conductors in all the choirs that ive been to. (:

okay, thats all for now. quite alot of stuff. haha, will upload some pics i took tmr. yeha. bye.


Hwachong Institution Choir
Penang Exchange Trip 2006

haha. the trip was really quite fun. although there were quite a few mishaps for me, i got a great deal out of the trip. really. and im actually quite happy that i went.

i think our choir has improved, really. though we're still not up to SYF standard, but the trip has given me new hope. that we can really sing and feel the music. during one of the practices in the hotel, i felt magic when we were singing calme. its the first time that i can acknowledge out motto: more than sound, we are music. (:
at the concert, we sang lousily for a few songs and revert back during the second half. i slipped during jaacobin. omg, shld look at the sops and ms lim's face. we were stunned cuz we usually can come in very well. but thank God, i actually got the note from the basses and came in accurately,(although the altos and tenors were a lil out of tune) so at least the highest and lowest sections had a chord. and i must say, its the best screeching i ever did. seriously. it was loud and ridiculously high. haha, quite proud of myself lah. and for karimata, we went really fast!! haha, i was like panting when we finished the song. could hear jason and luosha's loud gasps too. but nonetheless, we learnt and got a gd experience out of the performance. to be street-smart, as ms lim said. (:

i rmb one of the aims of the trip was bonding. well, i guess we achieved that. at least i did. i got to know my sops and evern other sections so much better. hahah. ppl like cheryl chang, YUHAN, jason, zhexi, zhong wei, kaixuan, mel, luosha, lilin, suet, huiying...and so many more. when i got my camera wet, zhongwei and defeng tried very hard to help me fix it. and i can see that they are really concerned about me and my camera. the girls, helping each other and showing concern by passing out glasses of water and strepsils during practices.
im really starting to love hwachong choir more. i feel more belonged to it. yeah.

i think one of the most important thing i got from this trip is the increased understanding and should i say, friendship i have with Ms Lim. i used to not understand what she wants but i can safely say that im learning to. without the trip, i wouldnt have the chance to talk to her normally, to joke around with her, to understand how she is, or even to know that she cares about every single choir member--including me. i rmb telling sera that i always manage to be good friends with my conductors--Ms Tham, Mrs Wilson. as in, i can see that they genuinely liked me, and vice versa. i used to think pessimistically that it wouldnt be the same here in hwachong. but i guess, i see new hope in a true relationship now. plus, through ms lim, i starting to see music in yet another perspective. yeah. (:

i spent all my money! haha. i bought three BROWN shirts (must be influenced by tracy), a pair of shoes which was1 size smaller but was too nice to resist, a white wide belt, a set of greeting cards, a handbag, two necklaces, penang food stuff, a shirt for my brother....and lots of memories. happy. would have bought more if not for the limited time for shopping.

i see God's miracles everyday in penang. personally and through my surroundings.
i see the beautiful view from my hotel room, the untouched rural charm in the old and ancient shophouses, the warm hospitality in those people.
God protected me and my stuff. i had stomachaches twice and each time, after praying, the pain would cease in a matter of minutes. just in time for me to enjoy myself shopping or singing again. my camera which was new was soaked cuz my bottle leaked in my bag. i was so worried, and God used ppl like zw and df to appease my worries, then 'healed' it by letting it work perfectly again. i cant thank God enough for keeping me healthy and happy throughout the trp. i learnt alot, musically and personally. the time spent with God on the first two days refreshed me and equipped me for the next day of activities. yeah, so Thank God for keeping me and the rest of hwachong choir safe! (:

going back to rv tmr for some chatting session with the heads. wonder how it'll be, but im excited to see my teachers again. (: after that, i'll prob be starting on my holiday homework. sigh.

haha, okay, pictures to be up soon. (:


im going to penang tmr.
sheesh. i wonder...

got kinda demoralised recently by how we sounded and all that. heard njc, and went totally and instantaneously into the zi bei mode. that was the kinda sound i was used to in RV and even AC. i wonder why it got lost here in hwachong.

perhaps its cuz i kept trying to conform to the hwachong way of singing, the way of doing things. in the process, i lost what i used to know and think is a good sound. no longer the full, rounded, thick and slightly darker kinda sound but the light, floaty, very impressive, cannot-blend-with-others-easily sound. why? i wonder.

thats why when i heard njc, i got so determined. i dont know what to do now, but go back to the trusted ways and methods that Ms Tham has taught me in RV. the knowledge that i hid to become a hwachonger. no more.

i used to cower under Sarah, thinking since her voice is the kind that ms lim likes, she can teach my Sops better. yes, at a point of time we did reached the standard ms lim likes. but then we became a section which cant blend with the rest (esp the guys) anymore. i didnt ask why because i thought that was what it must be, according to certain ppl. perhaps, now its time to go back to the simpler way--that is to get a full, round blended sound. yeah. i think thats what we need before we can go on to produce stuff of reasonable standards.

Lord, i need courage to do that. strength to perservere and not be cowed down.
help me.


havent updated in a while cuz i was too busy. imagine singing for 4 consecutive days.
mon, wed, fri- choir
tue- porgy and bess
thurs- Caregroup
sat- Service.
well, perhaps this is a prefiguration of what's gonna be happening to me next year.
BUSY. haha.

it has been raining cats and dogs these few days. yep, i know, the raining season.
but well, i like the rain when im indoors, but dislike it when im outdoors.
imagine getting your feet all wet and disgusting, walking through puddles of dirty and muddy water on the Roads. erk. but well, i like staying indoors when it rains, cuz its makes it so shuang when you're feeling drowsy and the rain is creating the perfect mood for a nap (: haha. okay.
but well, thinking about rain. rain is often used as a symbol to represent God right?
i guess God may seem to be rather strict with me sometimes, correcting me when im stubborn and all that. sometimes, also in the OT, He seemed like an angry Lord who disciplines by His righteousness. those are the times when im alittle afraid.
but He's also so comforting and gentle and very loving. like the rain which created a nice dreamy environment which is so soothing and comfortable, God does that too by giving me the peace and calmness i need so much in my everyday life.
well, guess God's really so interesting. and its really exciting to get to know Him more each day.

be faithful and you'll be victorious.

i just realised something yesterday during shepherd's class. i realized that im actually very blessed. choir has never really been something that i'll choose to depend on God for. i depend on God in other areas of my life--my studies, my family, my friends. but not choir. and now thinking back , i wonder why. perhaps its cuz i havent had much problems in choir. in RV, everything seemed to be okay. but in hwachong, i was more stressed with choir stuff, thus i lose control of my emotions more often. i feel dejected more easily. and i feel naked too.
but thank God, He didnt leave me alone, battling the odds and solving all the problems. instead it was pre-planned. He gave me an angel through Sarah. although i still dont know her as well as i know fungmin or seraphina, i somehow have this feeling that i can trust her and that she truly understands. she's always there when i lose control of myself in choir. and she understood how pressured i was. i can feel that she really does care, not only for me but also for Sops.
im glad to have her as my fellow Sop SL and friend. even though we are both at the edge of our wits and are clueless about what to do next, we know that we can depend on God together. that we'll both depend on God with this issue.
i think God's very wise. He knew that i'll face problems on my own, and He chose to place a person who is capable and is also a Child of His to aid me. so, praise God that i have Sarah.

wells. im going penang this friday. and there's high possibility that caregroup's gonna be on friday! sadd. but haha, maybe suet, huiying and i will be having our caregroup on the plane. each of us will take up a few roles! hahahaha. its really very funny. thks girls! i enjoyed the fellowship after dinner at S11. (:
i love Central E! cuz this group of brothers and sisters are always so bubbly and enthusiastic about Everything! haha. the care and concern is also there. (: haha. yes we stoned alot, we crap alot, we niao each other. but deep down, there is God's love anchoring us such that we do sincerly love each other (: yeahs.

i tink God's miraculous. He knows whats best for us. hence the decision was made. at first i wonder why. then i realised that its not only for everyone, but also for me. (:

im looking forward to a week full of God's work in my life cuz i know there'll be miracles this week (:


HAHA. finally PW is OVER. omg. im really happy.
and excited for our Haagen Daaz's fondue treat to reward and also congratulate ourselves for a job well done. heh. nice.
tink my elite sch girl act was quite well done. HAHA. yeahs.
im actually quite proud of myself for being bimbotic, or bitchy enough. (:

Jaacobin.
gosh, i cant believe that i screeched my way through 3-5 pages today. at the Highest point of the screech, i was hanging on to the "ng" for dont know how many beats. hahahha. but, believe me, it was SO much fun. its the first time you can just blast and blast and not worry if you're out of tune or not, basically cuz there's no tune. HAHA. and everyone was staring at me like i was some witch or maniac. hahah. but its okay, i think im gonna enjoy screeching on wed and friday and also on penang trip! =P

oh wells. time to go watch my American's Next Top Model! (:


haha. i just finished uploading some photos on friendster. haha. mostly zi-lian photos taken using my phone. haha. but it was fun.


hahah, tracee said this photo looks like it has professional lighting. haha. i pro. believe it or not, it was taken in a changing room where sera and i were trying out some clothes for fun. the purple top is really nice and has a very nice, though slightly suggestive, cut. sianz, its 59 bucks or i would have bought it. too expensive for penniless me. haha.

went to minds cafe today. played lots of interesting games. (im the boss!!) would have love to go dinner with CG, but family responsibilities call. sian. but whatever, i met ms tan yanjun and yingjie on the bus!!! haha. i was just thinking about our next rvchorale outing to minds and i saw her! =D heh. its fate. hahah. but woohoo~ we must go there again soon to have our surprise! *winks*

anyway, choir tmr. 9am to 3pm. long hours. haha, but hope to accomplish lots of stuff. starting to get more excited abt penang. haha.

BREAKTHROUGH camp! oooh. im so so so excited. i have a feeling that there will be miracles and life-changing experiences not only for me, but for hwachong.
wait up, God's gonna perform smt great in the weeks to come! (:


porgy and bass!

really, the practice was so much fun. i get to blast like crazy and not be afraid if i'll sing the wrong notes or am too soft. cuz the pros are there to support me! heh. really gonna enjoy this interesting experience. and believe me, i was SO surprised to see Mdm Mak in SLO! yes! the Mdm Mak who taught 4F elective geog in 2005! as in, please! i thought she only teaches geography? haha, but i kinda have some memory of her singing or commenting abt singing or smt...haha, anyway, it was really enjoyable and challenging to sing with such pro ppl and to meet them. many pracs! but im sure it'll be worth it.

hmm, im suddenly reminded abt sermon Pastor Ben preached last saturday. the novice with the master surrounding him at the piano produced beautiful music from a simple nursery rhyme. i experienced it myself here at SLO-no matter how lousy(or mediocre) we are alone, with these pros, we sounded like hah, angels, or well, a professional chorus. the package that we presented was gd even though some of us are not as gd.
reminds me of Jesus. isnt that what He always does? He always supports us in quiet ways that made us out to be so much better(on both inner and outer surfaces). to be presented as more wonderful individuals. cool stuff. as we are surrounded by the gifts of the Holy Spirit and God's presence Himself, we are superb. without Him, we'll be just normal, mediocre, un-interesting ppl. right?!

sadd. the shoes that i wanted to buy today lacks my size! sadd. i really want to find it. bleahx. so unlucky. im gonna try to find it online. haha.

no matter what, i think God has been faithful to me. i missed the chance to try out for the musical production (the taka one), and now He has given me another one which promises so much more fun and enriching experiences. yeahs.

all of a sudden, im feeling excited for service on sat another its only tuesday. haha. (: