havent updated in a while cuz i was too busy. imagine singing for 4 consecutive days.
mon, wed, fri- choir
tue- porgy and bess
thurs- Caregroup
sat- Service.
well, perhaps this is a prefiguration of what's gonna be happening to me next year.
BUSY. haha.

it has been raining cats and dogs these few days. yep, i know, the raining season.
but well, i like the rain when im indoors, but dislike it when im outdoors.
imagine getting your feet all wet and disgusting, walking through puddles of dirty and muddy water on the Roads. erk. but well, i like staying indoors when it rains, cuz its makes it so shuang when you're feeling drowsy and the rain is creating the perfect mood for a nap (: haha. okay.
but well, thinking about rain. rain is often used as a symbol to represent God right?
i guess God may seem to be rather strict with me sometimes, correcting me when im stubborn and all that. sometimes, also in the OT, He seemed like an angry Lord who disciplines by His righteousness. those are the times when im alittle afraid.
but He's also so comforting and gentle and very loving. like the rain which created a nice dreamy environment which is so soothing and comfortable, God does that too by giving me the peace and calmness i need so much in my everyday life.
well, guess God's really so interesting. and its really exciting to get to know Him more each day.

be faithful and you'll be victorious.

i just realised something yesterday during shepherd's class. i realized that im actually very blessed. choir has never really been something that i'll choose to depend on God for. i depend on God in other areas of my life--my studies, my family, my friends. but not choir. and now thinking back , i wonder why. perhaps its cuz i havent had much problems in choir. in RV, everything seemed to be okay. but in hwachong, i was more stressed with choir stuff, thus i lose control of my emotions more often. i feel dejected more easily. and i feel naked too.
but thank God, He didnt leave me alone, battling the odds and solving all the problems. instead it was pre-planned. He gave me an angel through Sarah. although i still dont know her as well as i know fungmin or seraphina, i somehow have this feeling that i can trust her and that she truly understands. she's always there when i lose control of myself in choir. and she understood how pressured i was. i can feel that she really does care, not only for me but also for Sops.
im glad to have her as my fellow Sop SL and friend. even though we are both at the edge of our wits and are clueless about what to do next, we know that we can depend on God together. that we'll both depend on God with this issue.
i think God's very wise. He knew that i'll face problems on my own, and He chose to place a person who is capable and is also a Child of His to aid me. so, praise God that i have Sarah.

wells. im going penang this friday. and there's high possibility that caregroup's gonna be on friday! sadd. but haha, maybe suet, huiying and i will be having our caregroup on the plane. each of us will take up a few roles! hahahaha. its really very funny. thks girls! i enjoyed the fellowship after dinner at S11. (:
i love Central E! cuz this group of brothers and sisters are always so bubbly and enthusiastic about Everything! haha. the care and concern is also there. (: haha. yes we stoned alot, we crap alot, we niao each other. but deep down, there is God's love anchoring us such that we do sincerly love each other (: yeahs.

i tink God's miraculous. He knows whats best for us. hence the decision was made. at first i wonder why. then i realised that its not only for everyone, but also for me. (:

im looking forward to a week full of God's work in my life cuz i know there'll be miracles this week (: