Finally Home
by Natalie Grant

I am here alone, in the falling snow,
And the wind, it cools my tears.
I have been so wrong,
I have turned away, but the road was long,
And finally I have come to my knees,
I want to be…

Where I can walk,
Where I can run,
Where my heart sings,
And I feel the sun,
Where I can trust,
And I'm strong enough,
Free like the wind,
I'll run into my Father's arms,
I'm finally home!

Oh the winds of change,
They blow slow and cool!
Oh the wandering of a fool,
But I have laid it down,
In my Father's hands,
Where the weight of suffering,
Is carried by the arms of a cross,
Healing my loss…

Where I can walk,
Where I can run,
Where my heart sings,
And I feel the sun,
Where I can trust,
And I'm strong enough,
Free like the wind,
I'll run into my Father's arms

Heaven has reached into my lonely soul.
Loving so deep, and so complete,
'Til I don't feel alone.
Where the light of love is burning,
Where the past is washed away,
Where I feel the sunlight shining on my face!
Now I can

Walk!
Now I can run,
Now my heart sings,
And I feel the sun,
Now I can trust,
And I'm strong enough,
Free like the wind,
I'll run into my Father's arms,
I'm finally home!

Now I can trust,
And I'm strong enough,
Free like the wind I run,
Into my Father's arms
I'm finally home

this song is actually for women who were sexually abused. i find it really touching. although we may not be hurt in this way before, im sure we do feel lonely, deserted, alone, depressed, dejected, exasperated once.
and this song really reminded me abt God's promise to love and protect us. to keep us safe and secured.
in Jesus, we'll be victorious.


hey. ppl out there. minitoons is having a sale!! haha. 30-35% off. haha. nice nice.

had a nice nice chat with ms leeyang! havent seen her for a long time, so it was good catching up. and she's still the same old funny self. yeahs. im so excited to have more shepherding with her (: went and bought alot of things from minitoons and popular. yeah, quite lame stuff too. haha. funny. but it was fun walking around doing nth. esp after that when i walked around wih leeyang.

oh i need to thank QINYAN. haha, she helped me do my first posb transfer for the things i bought online. haha, so thank you for helping the noob me who kept re-queueing for more than half an hour until i rmb to ask for help. haha.

am still sick. actually its a relapse! sian, cant sing for a few days. maybe one week. AGAIN. must learn to take care of myself. sigh.


yesterday was really a HARVEST.

Lilin, Seok Hui, Kenneth, Aaron, Eunice, Ivan.
welcome to hwachong caregroup and the family of God.

im truly amazed by God. when He says get ready, it really means that great things are coming. hehe, and we really did have our harvest yesterday. the angels are surely rejoicing like crazy yesterday when the crowds of ppl went down during altar call. God must be beaming from ear to ear. i was so so happy. the immense feeling of joy and peace stayed for quite some time! (: Praise Jesus!

im glad i heeded the Holy Spirit when He said to stay for altar call. we were supposed to leave early cuz of choir, but i insisted on staying cuz i had the feeling that God's gonna do great things. i wanted to give God the chance to do His thing, to give us a miracle, to do what He wanted to do with lilin. i wanted to give lilin a chance too. yes, im so very happy that i obeyed and it bore fruit. (:

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its the first time i felt such pain. and i wont forget it. when i saw her heartbroken expression, it really broke my heart and made me want to do my ultimate best just to not let her down. life ahead's gonna be so much tougher, but i tink that's why God put me in here. to make a difference and also to learn life. and i really learnt a lesson on humility.
no matter what comes next, i pray that God will empower me with strength and most importantly, wisdom, cuz i got a feeling that its my turn to do something. and i will help us come out victorious cuz God's strength with with me. Jesus, help me.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, everyone.
i rmb Suet once told me this.
CHRISTMAS means Christ, My Almighty Saviour.
thank you Jesus, my almighty Saviour (:


im still at the computer. i just remember something and i wanto blog abt it.

well, i realised on monday during practice, and was reminded today how xmas is to everyone. i rmb suet was commenting how beautiful the lyrics of away in the manger and all the carolling songs are and yet the meanings are not sang out. yeah, i realised ive been singing these pieces all my life. i recognised the beautiful melodies--but when have i stopped to look at the lyrics? in fact, has anyone stopped to look closely at the lyrics? truly, when i began to decify what i sing, everything becomes different. i dont know why, but notice the love of God, the peacefulness of the manger, the glory of the angels singing. its just...different.

have you stopped to consider the lyrics? and wonder how and why these words were written in the first place? singing christmas carols has been a tradition all around the world.
can you still say you havent heard about Christ's love? i dont know how.

i guess, in this festive week, why not stop and wonder not only what gifts to give our loved ones, but also the meanings behind these xmas carols and the significance of the birth of Christ. (:


haha. havent updated for a long time. well, lots of things going on right now.

im doing, or rather, trying to compile stuff for xmas, get xmas gifts for ppl i love..choir-ing. lots of things to do. haha. and to make things worse, my comm keeps restarting. so darn irritating. bleahx. but nvm. its okay.

haha. but anyways, i went for primary school xmas gathering yesterday! though there were only 7 ppl- gladys, jocelyn, alan, mingjie, hongyi, richarlynn and me, but it was still alot of fun! (: im still rather amazed that we can still keep in touch so well, still able to gather to celebrate festivals tgt. its cool, i tink this kinda friendship. sorry that i wasnt always around guys, i promise to be more available. but, i realised i was the STAR of the day. jocelyn and alan kept taking pictures of me--nono, not those nice ones, but weird, un-glam, crazy photograps of me doing weird things. they even made a video of me swaying hair. oh gosh, even i myslef couldnt stop laughing. haha. rights. gorge ourselves with more and more foodstuff. played zong ji mi ma to get rid of more food from the tabel. disgusting combinations of food. and i got sabo-ed 4 times! ahh. haha but, i truly love these guys! thank you for the wonderful evening! (:

haha. okay pictures up sooon. rights, im going back to msn.


2 souls for Jesus.
see, it can be done. YES!! finally the hwachong girls are seeing a breakthrough! haha, both are dancers too--samantha and lim mian. we're so gonna be a wonderful performing grp. heh.

we're closer to our goal of 25! today, i saw masses of ppl going down to the stage during altar call for both services. and i cant help feeling so joyful cuz so many lives are saved! and the angels in heaven are rejoicing as well. God must be smiling from ear to ear today. haha. Praise God!
when Samantha and lim mian went down, my heart was screaming for joy too. (:
thank God for robert and huiying who invited the two of them, and for the others who helped to save these souls! =D

hope my voice gets better. i miss singing. esp during worship today, i was trying hard to sing but kept coughing. but well, it will get better. before fullerton. yeah yeah.

okay anyway, here are some random pictures.

Breakthrough Camp







THREE. choir concert




Breakthrough Camp 2006

i guess its difficult to blog all about the camp. learnt alot. experienced alot. breakthroughs.
all i can say is that i feel really charged up now. to do more for God.

i got to know more central ppl esp through cheerleading and fireball. haha. bunked with CE2 girls and had a good chat with abigail. got to know more ppl deeper. set new goals to save more souls. yeah~ excited for tmr cuz i have a feeling something great's gonna happen! (:

and i got a strong feeling about my future.
i rmb when i was taking psle, i wanted to go rv but thought i couldnt so i put bukit panjang as my first choice. and in the end i got into rv.
when i was sec four, my dream was hwachong--had always been my dream. but i wasnt good enough all through the year, even at prelims so i went to AC. but O levels out and im off to hwachong.
although my studies arent good now, but i think the feeling is true, and its a hope given to me by God. that i'll be going overseas for further studies. im actually very excited cuz i wanto experience life outside my comfort zone. to meet new ppl, to serve more ppl.
i really do wanto work very hard so that God's plans for me can be fulfilled. (:

25 for hwachong. 1000 for y-hope.

i want to be God-centered and people-oriented. =D


wah. i shouldnt have gone to the porgy and bess thingy. only spent less than an hour there and even less rehearsing. gosh, i could have been at service and learning something. gosh. sigh.

this feeling. im terrified of it. that it'll come back. im really scared. i need to turn back instead of running away. back to Jesus.

here are some random pictures i took by MYSELF. heh.

some photos taken at choir camp 2006:

RVChorale Sec Fours 2005


Simneh's brownie cake. i love you Simna!

simneh, yanjun, me, xinyi, sera! (:

some choir girls

now for some shots i took at Penang:

the gorgeous view from sera's and my hotel room

my attempt to take a picture using the mirror. a failed one. haha.

chang-er and me after sharing porridge on the first day

my room-mate and me @ changi airport on the first day!

sheepmates! (: (suet's smiling!! hah.)