although its kinda late/early now, and im supposed to be either studying or sleeping. but im still online. basically i havent been online much for the past 2 weeks. and i suddenly feel like i very no life. hmm, so i spent quite a few hours on the com today, cuz i have no lit paper tmr and i simply feel like slacking.

sometimes, what you think you want may not be what you'll get. i guess God works in weird ways. its weird cuz i felt it so strongly and i really believe it with all my heart. yet it seems so impossible. the chances look so dim.
when i was doing QT the day before, i suddenly realised smt.
perhaps, what i felt wasnt wrong.
God's just giving me smt that i didnt expect but has the same effect. so i guess no matter how hard it is, i must learn to trust God and believe that He has the best and wants the best for me.
for the foolishness of God is wiser than man..
i just have to keep reminding myself abt this.

smtimes, you just cant get wat you want. cuz its the best thing to do or want now. and smtimes you just cant help wanting it because you aint suppose to want or have it. i guess there's nth wrong as long as you take control of your actions and not like what you want determine what you do. right? i guess its hard to not succumb to temptations. to desires.
but well, self control. discipline. and hope- knowing that what comes later will be better.
much better.

sounding philosophical today. haha. too much studying. haha.
wanna go sentosa sooooon~