i told myself today that i should stop being pessimistic and just do what i can. no matter what others said or complained about ---, i cannot join in mainly because i cant. who will, if i give up? of course i know its difficult to work on ---, especially if the possbility of being disappointed is so so high. but if God didnt give up on me, what right do i have? ive got so many things i want to do, i just hope that i'll be able to find time this week to do all of these things that i think may help. slow and steady. dont lose faith, yvonne.

i just realised today that i really had improved alot since last years. my msg is better and i guess im more confident now. if i can improve at this slow but steady rate, i'll reach what i aim for. i just need discipline, tenacity and lots of faith and dependence on God. yepyep. no saying giving up, no matter what. (:(:(:

i warned myself NO. although the setting is so similiar to then--the position of my things, the situations and even the conversations. nothing is going to make me do it again. not ready to, and no desire for it. studies is and will be my focus till the end of year. that and other things that will last for the eternity. yeah. (:(:(: