short post cuz im gonna fall asleep any moment now.

i still havent finished my history but im on the way! i want to do a complete essay outline, not his style but that means ive to do more research. duh. but im too lazy lah, dragged too long.

over the weekend, i kept thinking about what's in for me after hwachong. i guess all these was spurred by the US/UK talks on Friday afternoon. i saw the college which i saw in the earlier part of the year. havent done much research on it, nor have i checked other colleges..but i know that if i'm going, i want to be there. UPenn. a dream.

i started wondering what it'll be like. and then i started asking myself what God wanted. then i asked God. my logical deduction is that if im to go overseas, if God wants me to go, He'll give me a scholarship because He knows that my family can't pay for me. and i don't want to burden them. but well, Fungmin reminded me on Sat night that i wouldn't know. cuz God would work in ways i can't predict, that i can't deduce. God doesn't work as i do, or think as i do. since i'm not God, then i shouldn't think too much.

the closer i am, the fewer the choices, the easier the choice.

i guess the only thing i can do now is to yearn and want to get closer to God, so that He'll revela His plans to me. but then again, i suddenly rmb what Tracy told me that day, that it'll be quite scary and un-exciting if i would to know everything God has for me, right? and i would try to escape, and go opposite directions. makes alot of sense right.
as i was trying to do history just now, Raphael came to talk to me, and what he said was really God-sent.
aim high, aim to do my best.
at the end of the day, God will take me to where He wants to.

that was exactly what i needed.

listening to You are the Music in Me. from High School Musical 2. haha. yes, it's not out yet, but i downloaded it form youtube, cuz it's really too nice. haha. it's really very sweet. haha. and when i read the lyrics, yes nice.
and i think it reflects what Jesus is to me too. very sweet. in this cause, Jesus' music and Joy in my heart (:

the msg God told me last week is still clear: CATCH UP.
God, here i come!! (: