goodbye to yvonne.
welcome to taesha.
can't really explain how it felt to be immersed in the water for the brief few seconds. but i knew that i was rather nervous/excited before that, and superly joyful after that. the image that Jasmine told me, it seemed so so real. need to ponder over it more. hmm.
im so glad im made the choice. i could have done it the last time round, but not too sure why, this time i was really really ready to be water baptised. and it feels real good to proudly declare that im a follower of God! yeah. (:
ineffable, really.

another very tiring week ahead. i dont think my teachers will be easy on me. i dont think i'll be easy on myself. but i really want to remind myself to stop whining. to stop thinking. to stop grumbling. to just work. and im not gonna to pursue dreams with an empty intent, with no purpose.
im gonna do it for and with You.

i'm more than just me and me alone.


i havent blogged for a while. but i got an urge to blog today!
alot of things happened for the past few months.
mugging prelims. prelims. getting back results.
caregroup. history sentosa trip. rvchorale sleepover at sera's. class party. last day of school.
it seems as though my life has been passing too quickly in front of me. thinking back, it has been quite an eventful few months. one thing for sure, i've grown up quite alot.

my results. haha, okay i guess. there are marked improvements for ALL my papers which is a really good thing. i jumped two grades for econs-which is a true miracle. though i studied hard, i know there was more to it than just me and me alone. so thank God. (: for the past month, i wasnt the closest to God during the exam weeks, it was in fact in these two weeks when i learnt to depend on Him more. to be quiet and just to listen. (:

today i got to know of some stuff that hmm, truly made me doubt myself and what i dreamt. the signs God gave me couldn't be wrong, could they? it suddenly seemed alittle impossible esp when so many more zai ppl are going for it. i havent started much, havent prepared much. can i get it? is it truly meant for me? the confidence that i had before regarding this issue is slowly dwindling. is it a trap-these thoughts coming more strongly than ever in the week im taking SATS, in the month that im taking my As. God, will you reassure me once again and give me the spirit hope and i need!

busy busy busy weeks ahead. 28 days to the start of Alevels. im really not very prepared yet. looking at my math especially, i feel alittle scared. but what's wrong with having fears and doubts, they make me realise the importance of relying and depending on God. to tap on Jesus' power, peace and strength. what im most concerned with now is to do my best, give my all and wait on God. i feel secured knowing that there is a divine plan for me, that i have Jesus on my side. (:

im excited for the weekend!
Saturday, im waiting to see what God can and is going to do in my family. Sunday, a new Yvonne awaits. i can't wait to take my new name. taesha which means joy in latin. i want, need joy from God so that i can be the joy to the people around me. (:

peace I leave you.