i put the photo of you guys as my desktop picture. gosh, i really do miss you all. i miss talking, having cg and just spending time with you guys. i feel some sense of lost without you guys around me. haha, sounds weird i know but yeah, that's how i feel, really.

i didnt see you that day. i dont know what happened or if it had already happened. surprisingly, i find myself missing you too. im not sorry for that because you were part of us. im just disappointed and kinda..that you decided to do this. cant really explain how i feel or what i think, i just do.

obligations? and all the while i thought there was more. how foolish i felt all of a sudden. i cant claim that i know you very well. now, i cant even try to convince myself that i know you at all. can i do anything now? if i can, i will. but i really dont know what and how. somehow, i think of you alot, and each time i do, i feel pissed at myself. at the same time, i felt a huge wae of sadness that i cant control.

i dont know why i feel like crying alot these few days.