surprisesurprise.
my head's in a state of confusion. my emotions in a big mess. i cant exactly describe what im actually feeling cuz its just kinda mixed up.
disappointment. sadness. pissed.
you didn't lie. you weren't exactly honest either.
perhaps you just didnt bother to. perhaps i wasnt trustable.
and what does this make me?
i feel quite like a loser.

the meeting on saturday made me remember many things. just as i felt super regretful over what happened for her, i strived and promised to do better, in fact to buck up in my role for her and her. and now this. sheesh. it seems that life isn't making this easy for me.

im just totally speechless.