i was holding back alot of emotions and feelings for the past few days and now that i finally allowed myself to even think about it, im feeling mixed feelings.

i thought about the days we had cg after school.
the times we chiong for church after choir.
the times we sing and praise like nobody's business in nexus during metamorphsis and services.
my first time at camp when we stood tgt in a group and shouted "hwachong"!
the cards i received on my birthdays, before SYF, before concerts.
the pats on my shoulder when i was feeling really down.
the times we fool around outside the LT making shadows with our hands.
the food we had at dinners at newton, jing ji, canteen, meridian, s11..
the impromptu lunch or dinner sessions.
the studying sessions at coffeebean, starbucks, marksnspencer, esprit cafe, school library, reading room, concourse, serene macs, rooftop..
the prayer meetings at basketball court and the secret place above the canteen.
the different church camps we had tgt.
....my family.

many many many memories of the times we had together as a hwachong caregroup. it is in this place where i really grew up, mature alot. learnt to be more compassionate, more loving, more sincere. and to be happy just being myself. because they love me for who i am.
im so going to miss all of them. everyone of them.
the hwachong girls, the guys, plus the other unit grads. i cant say that i was close to every single person in the grads group. but i will definitely miss everyone.

and you know what, im already missing her. i cant express how i feel very adequately. but i really appreciate what she has done for me. how she has supported me and never giving up on me. how she believed in me and what i can be. she has always been my pillar of strength and i look up to her alot. even though i didnt get to spend alot of time with her this year, i knew that she'll be right there when i need her, just a msg or call away. thank you my dear shepherd, Tracy.

i feel alittle empty now. perhaps cuz im feeling a little left behind and that my support pool as decreased overnight. but i know i'll be fine after a while.
i'll still see them around. i'll see them later in the year when my part is done here. and yes, at the end of the race.

thank God for all of you.
i love you guys, alot.