im worried because i really need this, at least i think so, as it is gonna affect how my family lives for the next few years. i really want it quite badly but will i get it? do i really need it?
i dont know.
perhaps what im thinking is short term, but my Daddy above knows the long term plans that He has for me. i'll definitely trust God in this, but hmm, i cant remove the worry that lingers in my heart.
so the only prayer i have is for God to help me be able to trust in Him more, and to have stronger and more persistent faith.
scary it seems, unreal it may be to others, but i believe that my Daddy will bless me cuz He loves me and cuz i have given my best in all the interviews i'd been to so far and also in my ministry.
so i think im just gonna continue to get on with my life, continue to try serving Him with more of myself.

Lord, i need.
more of You and less of me.